Lesson to be learned as junior
So this is inspired by Kelli 'cayuse i just read her thing n' it was talkin' about the things she learned this year n' everything so here's mine.
this year has been like a rollcoaster ride.. SERIOUSLY.. especially in the beignin' with all the lil' things that went on.. Like movin' that killed me. i swear i wanted to run away. N' i still do.. but that's not the point. But i began to see also who my real friends are.. Because even though i am thousands of miles away from home i have my friends still talkin' to me like i lived right there.. n' that to me means alot!!!! THe downhill was when Jeffrey kept breakin' up with me n' going back out with me. I can't tell u how much torn i was.. the way he was treatin' me.. I never had a guy make me feel that low especially after a year of being together. And that stupid ass hole didn't even remember of our one year annviersary. And when he told me he was cheatin' on me.. Like it was nothing big. I can't tell u how much i cried.. n' everynight i felt low as dirt.. like i could never be good enough for neything! But on the beginnin' of January i got a call from Mel sayin' hey call this guy name Jay. He wants to talk to .. n' his to nervous to call u.. i was so confused.. n' I WAS nervous to.. I swear i felt like i was meetin' someone i waited all my life to meet or something. i couldn't explain y i was so nervous.. my heart was beatin' so fast.. n' i would dial his number n' hang up before i dailed the last number.. I was freakin' out! But when i finally did.. I loved his voice. And i am so glad that i made that call.. n' that we started talkin' on myspace to.. 'cause that broke the ice. n' after that we started leavin' each other lil' message sayin' to call one another.. n' then we start to get on the phone.. n' the first time i actually had a conv with him.. it wasn't weird or neything. it was normal.. it felt like i known him for years.. And he felt the same way. n' as we strated talkin'.. I found out so much about him.. n' how great he is. I opened up to him as though we always talked to each other, and we became close beyond belief. I really can't explain to u how much he changed my life. Finally there was a guy that i like who likes me in return. n' that was great feelin'. He made me laugh n' smile all the time. n' we could talk about neything. Jay being in my life, shows me a whole new light to life. That not every guy is a asshole.. because trust me i met alot of those. But He has seriously changed me life in good way. he has never made me cry.. n' if he has it's from laughin' to much is start cryin'.. other then that never. So even though i was cheated on by Jeffrey many times, he made me feel like deserve that. that i was really nothing.. n' that iwas lower then dirt but whatever. Because Jay, the way you make me feel is a thousand time better. You make me feel so loved, and so amazin'. And my friends i seen so much more from them now.. 'cause i have friends who i know i can trust now.. 'cause even though i moved they are still here for me. And through everything i went through this year. I am so glad i did. Because i met a amazing guy ((Jay)).. n' i see how great friends i have SERIOUSLY!!!
Well i am out..
Sry that half the things i said was chessy lol
Love,
Z
this year has been like a rollcoaster ride.. SERIOUSLY.. especially in the beignin' with all the lil' things that went on.. Like movin' that killed me. i swear i wanted to run away. N' i still do.. but that's not the point. But i began to see also who my real friends are.. Because even though i am thousands of miles away from home i have my friends still talkin' to me like i lived right there.. n' that to me means alot!!!! THe downhill was when Jeffrey kept breakin' up with me n' going back out with me. I can't tell u how much torn i was.. the way he was treatin' me.. I never had a guy make me feel that low especially after a year of being together. And that stupid ass hole didn't even remember of our one year annviersary. And when he told me he was cheatin' on me.. Like it was nothing big. I can't tell u how much i cried.. n' everynight i felt low as dirt.. like i could never be good enough for neything! But on the beginnin' of January i got a call from Mel sayin' hey call this guy name Jay. He wants to talk to .. n' his to nervous to call u.. i was so confused.. n' I WAS nervous to.. I swear i felt like i was meetin' someone i waited all my life to meet or something. i couldn't explain y i was so nervous.. my heart was beatin' so fast.. n' i would dial his number n' hang up before i dailed the last number.. I was freakin' out! But when i finally did.. I loved his voice. And i am so glad that i made that call.. n' that we started talkin' on myspace to.. 'cause that broke the ice. n' after that we started leavin' each other lil' message sayin' to call one another.. n' then we start to get on the phone.. n' the first time i actually had a conv with him.. it wasn't weird or neything. it was normal.. it felt like i known him for years.. And he felt the same way. n' as we strated talkin'.. I found out so much about him.. n' how great he is. I opened up to him as though we always talked to each other, and we became close beyond belief. I really can't explain to u how much he changed my life. Finally there was a guy that i like who likes me in return. n' that was great feelin'. He made me laugh n' smile all the time. n' we could talk about neything. Jay being in my life, shows me a whole new light to life. That not every guy is a asshole.. because trust me i met alot of those. But He has seriously changed me life in good way. he has never made me cry.. n' if he has it's from laughin' to much is start cryin'.. other then that never. So even though i was cheated on by Jeffrey many times, he made me feel like deserve that. that i was really nothing.. n' that iwas lower then dirt but whatever. Because Jay, the way you make me feel is a thousand time better. You make me feel so loved, and so amazin'. And my friends i seen so much more from them now.. 'cause i have friends who i know i can trust now.. 'cause even though i moved they are still here for me. And through everything i went through this year. I am so glad i did. Because i met a amazing guy ((Jay)).. n' i see how great friends i have SERIOUSLY!!!
Well i am out..
Sry that half the things i said was chessy lol
Love,
Z