Fic: I'll Protect You [One-shot]
Title: I'll Protect You
Pairing/s: YunHo x JaeJoong [YunJae]; YunHo x Kai(OC) [broken]
Rating: PG-15, just to be safe.
Genre: Fluff, Angst if you will.
Disclaimer: I am in no way associated with the boys used for this story. As for the girl...well. (:
Summary: Protecting someone means you love that person. Right?
A/N: This fic is dedicated to o0yani0o because I owe her. Please do enjoy it, guys. I'm sorry it sucked. This is Unbeta-ed, by the way. YANI: This might not be what you wanted, I'm sorry. But this is all the plot I could squeeze out from my mind. I'll make it up to you, I swear. A cold doesn't really help when I'm writing a fic because the cold seems to muddle my brain and it gives me lame plots. D: I hope you still enjoy it.
She looked at him with those eyes that seemed to know everything. "Kai, you gotta talk to me." he whispered, as if afraid to break her heart all the more.
"There's nothing to talk about, YunHo." she whispered back.
He stared at her, trying to figure out a way for her to understand.
"Kai, look. You know I lo--"
"YunHo, don't." she cut him off. "I know what you're gonna say. But I don't want to hear it. It'll break me more."
She smiled at him. That small heart-breaking smile. "Protecting someone means you love that person, right? So, I'll just keep on protecting you, while you protect him. It'll be easier for the both of us that way, I think."
"Look, just listen to me first. Please?"
She nodded slightly. "I love you. Really, I do. But I guess not in the way you want me to. You're a very awesome woman, and you'll find someone who'll love you the right way. And I am very sorry for having you find out this way, but I love him, Kai. With all my heart."
Kai looked away, afraid to let him see the tears that were finally starting to fall from her warm brown eyes. "I know. And that's why it hurts all the more."
When he was about to say something in response, she cut him off. "Really, YunHo. You don't have to explain anything to me. I understand, I really do. Just...just be happy with him, okay?"
She looked back at him. "I'm being selfish again." She laughed slightly, though the pain was evident. And when it seemed that YunHo didn't understand, she continued. "I was just wishing you'd change your mind and tell me you love me with all your heart."
"Kai..."
"I know. You love him, he loves you. That's that."
"Kai, it's not like that. Yes, I do love him, but he doesn't love me. Well, he LOVED me, anyway."
She smiled and took his hand. "YunHo, there is no such word as 'loved'. Love has no past tense. If he ever says he 'loved' you or if he stops loving you, he never really did love you in the first place. And judging by the way he looked at you when they visited, he still loves you, YunHo. Probably just as much as I love you."
She let go of his hand, her heart breaking once more from the thought that that would ever be the last time she could hold him.
"I have to go. Take care of him, YunHo." she got up from the soft couch. She looked at him once last time, her tears never stopping, and cupped his cheek. "I love you." And she walked out from the warm cafe, walked out from his life, and walked out from the man she loves with her heart breaking as fast as it was beating.
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"Hyung." ChangMin's head popped in through his bedroom door.
"Hmm?" YunHo looked up from the book he was reading.
"They're here!" ChangMin finally stepped in, his face lit up by the very bright smile YunHo hasn't seen in so long.
"C'MOOOOOOOOOOOON!" ChangMin pulled him up from his bed and dragged him towards the living room.
He let himself be dragged out by the youngest. When they were finally in front of the couch, his heart swelled upon seeing the three faces of his best friends, his brothers, his family.
He surprised all four when he shouted "GROUP HUG~"
Silence ensued for a heartbeat, then JunSu giggled and jumped up from the couch, pulling a grinning YooChun with him. They ran towards YunHo, who now had ChangMin's neck locked in his arms. When they finally registered the empty space between YunHo and JunSu, they all turned their heads towards the lead singer.
"Hyung, come on~" ChangMin called. JaeJoong stared at them, with a small smile, for quite a while longer. When ChangMin and JunSu began to whine, he got up and filled that space. They embraced each other for some time when a very dramatic "I CAN'T BREATHE" came from ChangMin.
The five broke away and laughed at their youngest. "Why are you dramatic all of a sudden? Is it because your three hyungs are back? Huh?" YunHo teased ChangMin and JunSu and YooChun bickered along with the two.
From the corner of his eye, he saw JaeJoong sit quietly on the windowsill, with a solemn expression on his beautiful face. YunHo left the three and walked slowly towards the lead singer.
"Jae, are you alright?" JaeJoong looked startled for a moment's time and then smiled.
He just nodded. "Mind if I take a seat?"
"No." So, he sat on what little space the sill could provide. They were blanketed with a welcome and calming silence for a while when JaeJoong nudged YunHo's knee with his big toe. YunHo looked at him.
"How's it going with your girlfriend?"
YunHo's heart skipped a beat as memories of that gracious, young woman he still cared for were triggered by that almost-innocent inquiry. "We broke up, actually."
JaeJoong remained silent for a few seconds. "I'm sorry to hear that. Are you okay, though?"
"Yeah, I am."
"Good." Then awkward silence dawned upon them. "I'll just go unpack." JaeJoong said, as he got up from the windowsill.
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"Chunnie, he doesn't love me, okay? Just let it go."
"No, Joongie. He does. He does love you. Have you seen the way he looks at you?"
"Well, have you forgotten that he sided with SME? Have you forgotten that he decided for himself not to believe me?"
YooChun sighed. It was so hard to talk to JaeJoong about these kinds of stuff. Especially when the lead singer's insecurities have risen up all the more due to the group's short-term separation. "Joongie, you know he's a very practical person."
"Yeah, I know. But why did he have to side with them? Why did he pretend not to believe me?"
"Well, maybe he was trying to vouch for us, Joongie. Think of it this way. YunHo and Minnie-ah stayed with SME so that they could help us get through this. Help SME understand us. You know?"
"Chun, my head is aching with your logic. It's been a long day. Let's just sleep, okay?"
"You go ahead, Joongie. I need to talk to JunSu for a while."
"Talk my ass, Chun." JaeJoong smiled. He knew about YooChun and JunSu and he was happy for them. At least they had each other.
He lied down on his side, facing the wall, trying to relax his mind and control the beating of his heart. Knowing that he lived in the same house as their leader again seemed to be doing things to him. Thoughts about the handsome, tanned-skin dancer flooded his mind.
The door opening and closing pulled Jae out from is thoughts. Without turning, he said "Why was your talk with JunSu so short, Chunnie?" with a little teasing in his voice.
No answer came, but a dip from behind him on his bed made him finally turn around.
YunHo was faced with JaeJoong's surprised doe-like eyes. "What are you doing here, YunHo?"
"I just...want to catch up on things."
"We can do that tomorrow. Let me go to sleep." JaeJoong replied, a tinge of annoyance and fear coloring his melodious voice. Annoyance with himself, that he cannot control his heart whenever the latter was around, and fear. No relative reason for his being afraid, he was just...afraid.
"No, Boo. This talk can't wait till tomorrow." JaeJoong's breath caught at the very familiar pet name.
"Okay. Talk, then." He sat up, leaned his back against his bed's headboard and looked at YunHo.
The leader sighed. "BooJae, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't able to defend you. I'm sorry I wasn't there when you really needed me. I'm sorry."
"Well, if you're only going to apologize, then apology accepted. You can leave me in peace now."
YunHo's heart ached from that cold tone JaeJoong used. "Jae, stop being bitter about this, please. It's already done. We're all together now. Why can't you let it go?" His anger surfaced, but he tried his best to control it.
The lead singer was silent for a while, and it took YunHo a few heartbeats to realized that JaeJoong was shaking. "Boo, what's wrong?"
"You know why I can't let it go, YunHo? Because it hurt a lot more than what you could imagine. It hurt like crazy when you said that we were on our own. It felt like you ripped my heart from my chest that day you looked like you didn't care. Those nights I spend in my room, thinking about you, only you, it hurt. I felt like I already consumed my tears, but when ChangMin secretly sends me a picture of you sleeping, or even just standing by the window, I cry all over again. I can't let it go, YunHo, because that day you led us out of the apartment, I knew you didn't love me. Not the way I want you to. And I could've lived with that. But knowing that you really didn't care, knowing that what little space we had in your heart was already unavailable for us, for me, hurt more than all the injuries I had to endure."
YunHo, realizing a tad bit later that JaeJoong confessed his love for him, though indirectly, embraced the lead singer tightly.
"JaeJoong. Joongie. BooJae. Boo. Shh. It's alright. I'm here. I love you, too. I love you. It's alright. We're five again. It's alright." he whispered, as to soothe the brown-haired angel.
JaeJoong looked up form his place on YunHo's chest. "You love me?" All he received was a light peck on the lips and a tighter embrace and those were enough for him to wrap his arms around YunHo's body as well.
Moments later find the couple wrapped in JaeJoong's blanket, arms still around each other.
"Boo, someone once told me that protecting someone means you love that person. And I'm sorry I wasn't able to protect you. But I promise with all my heart that I will protect you starting today, until always. I may not always be able to protect you physically, but I will do all that I can to protect your heart and your beautiful soul."
JaeJoong only smiled, as he was rendered speechless by YunHo's promise. He gazed at the taller man lovingly, stroking his cheek. Somehow, even when he knows that there will be times when he and YunHo would hurt each other, the latter would still do his best to keep that promise. "I love you, YunHo."
"I love you, too, Boo."
Note: There will be two sequels for this. :D Hopefully, everyone enjoyed this fic that was so lamely written. ALWAY S KEEP THE FAITH, though.
Pairing/s: YunHo x JaeJoong [YunJae]; YunHo x Kai(OC) [broken]
Rating: PG-15, just to be safe.
Genre: Fluff, Angst if you will.
Disclaimer: I am in no way associated with the boys used for this story. As for the girl...well. (:
Summary: Protecting someone means you love that person. Right?
A/N: This fic is dedicated to o0yani0o because I owe her. Please do enjoy it, guys. I'm sorry it sucked. This is Unbeta-ed, by the way. YANI: This might not be what you wanted, I'm sorry. But this is all the plot I could squeeze out from my mind. I'll make it up to you, I swear. A cold doesn't really help when I'm writing a fic because the cold seems to muddle my brain and it gives me lame plots. D: I hope you still enjoy it.
She looked at him with those eyes that seemed to know everything. "Kai, you gotta talk to me." he whispered, as if afraid to break her heart all the more.
"There's nothing to talk about, YunHo." she whispered back.
He stared at her, trying to figure out a way for her to understand.
"Kai, look. You know I lo--"
"YunHo, don't." she cut him off. "I know what you're gonna say. But I don't want to hear it. It'll break me more."
She smiled at him. That small heart-breaking smile. "Protecting someone means you love that person, right? So, I'll just keep on protecting you, while you protect him. It'll be easier for the both of us that way, I think."
"Look, just listen to me first. Please?"
She nodded slightly. "I love you. Really, I do. But I guess not in the way you want me to. You're a very awesome woman, and you'll find someone who'll love you the right way. And I am very sorry for having you find out this way, but I love him, Kai. With all my heart."
Kai looked away, afraid to let him see the tears that were finally starting to fall from her warm brown eyes. "I know. And that's why it hurts all the more."
When he was about to say something in response, she cut him off. "Really, YunHo. You don't have to explain anything to me. I understand, I really do. Just...just be happy with him, okay?"
She looked back at him. "I'm being selfish again." She laughed slightly, though the pain was evident. And when it seemed that YunHo didn't understand, she continued. "I was just wishing you'd change your mind and tell me you love me with all your heart."
"Kai..."
"I know. You love him, he loves you. That's that."
"Kai, it's not like that. Yes, I do love him, but he doesn't love me. Well, he LOVED me, anyway."
She smiled and took his hand. "YunHo, there is no such word as 'loved'. Love has no past tense. If he ever says he 'loved' you or if he stops loving you, he never really did love you in the first place. And judging by the way he looked at you when they visited, he still loves you, YunHo. Probably just as much as I love you."
She let go of his hand, her heart breaking once more from the thought that that would ever be the last time she could hold him.
"I have to go. Take care of him, YunHo." she got up from the soft couch. She looked at him once last time, her tears never stopping, and cupped his cheek. "I love you." And she walked out from the warm cafe, walked out from his life, and walked out from the man she loves with her heart breaking as fast as it was beating.
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"Hyung." ChangMin's head popped in through his bedroom door.
"Hmm?" YunHo looked up from the book he was reading.
"They're here!" ChangMin finally stepped in, his face lit up by the very bright smile YunHo hasn't seen in so long.
"C'MOOOOOOOOOOOON!" ChangMin pulled him up from his bed and dragged him towards the living room.
He let himself be dragged out by the youngest. When they were finally in front of the couch, his heart swelled upon seeing the three faces of his best friends, his brothers, his family.
He surprised all four when he shouted "GROUP HUG~"
Silence ensued for a heartbeat, then JunSu giggled and jumped up from the couch, pulling a grinning YooChun with him. They ran towards YunHo, who now had ChangMin's neck locked in his arms. When they finally registered the empty space between YunHo and JunSu, they all turned their heads towards the lead singer.
"Hyung, come on~" ChangMin called. JaeJoong stared at them, with a small smile, for quite a while longer. When ChangMin and JunSu began to whine, he got up and filled that space. They embraced each other for some time when a very dramatic "I CAN'T BREATHE" came from ChangMin.
The five broke away and laughed at their youngest. "Why are you dramatic all of a sudden? Is it because your three hyungs are back? Huh?" YunHo teased ChangMin and JunSu and YooChun bickered along with the two.
From the corner of his eye, he saw JaeJoong sit quietly on the windowsill, with a solemn expression on his beautiful face. YunHo left the three and walked slowly towards the lead singer.
"Jae, are you alright?" JaeJoong looked startled for a moment's time and then smiled.
He just nodded. "Mind if I take a seat?"
"No." So, he sat on what little space the sill could provide. They were blanketed with a welcome and calming silence for a while when JaeJoong nudged YunHo's knee with his big toe. YunHo looked at him.
"How's it going with your girlfriend?"
YunHo's heart skipped a beat as memories of that gracious, young woman he still cared for were triggered by that almost-innocent inquiry. "We broke up, actually."
JaeJoong remained silent for a few seconds. "I'm sorry to hear that. Are you okay, though?"
"Yeah, I am."
"Good." Then awkward silence dawned upon them. "I'll just go unpack." JaeJoong said, as he got up from the windowsill.
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"Chunnie, he doesn't love me, okay? Just let it go."
"No, Joongie. He does. He does love you. Have you seen the way he looks at you?"
"Well, have you forgotten that he sided with SME? Have you forgotten that he decided for himself not to believe me?"
YooChun sighed. It was so hard to talk to JaeJoong about these kinds of stuff. Especially when the lead singer's insecurities have risen up all the more due to the group's short-term separation. "Joongie, you know he's a very practical person."
"Yeah, I know. But why did he have to side with them? Why did he pretend not to believe me?"
"Well, maybe he was trying to vouch for us, Joongie. Think of it this way. YunHo and Minnie-ah stayed with SME so that they could help us get through this. Help SME understand us. You know?"
"Chun, my head is aching with your logic. It's been a long day. Let's just sleep, okay?"
"You go ahead, Joongie. I need to talk to JunSu for a while."
"Talk my ass, Chun." JaeJoong smiled. He knew about YooChun and JunSu and he was happy for them. At least they had each other.
He lied down on his side, facing the wall, trying to relax his mind and control the beating of his heart. Knowing that he lived in the same house as their leader again seemed to be doing things to him. Thoughts about the handsome, tanned-skin dancer flooded his mind.
The door opening and closing pulled Jae out from is thoughts. Without turning, he said "Why was your talk with JunSu so short, Chunnie?" with a little teasing in his voice.
No answer came, but a dip from behind him on his bed made him finally turn around.
YunHo was faced with JaeJoong's surprised doe-like eyes. "What are you doing here, YunHo?"
"I just...want to catch up on things."
"We can do that tomorrow. Let me go to sleep." JaeJoong replied, a tinge of annoyance and fear coloring his melodious voice. Annoyance with himself, that he cannot control his heart whenever the latter was around, and fear. No relative reason for his being afraid, he was just...afraid.
"No, Boo. This talk can't wait till tomorrow." JaeJoong's breath caught at the very familiar pet name.
"Okay. Talk, then." He sat up, leaned his back against his bed's headboard and looked at YunHo.
The leader sighed. "BooJae, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't able to defend you. I'm sorry I wasn't there when you really needed me. I'm sorry."
"Well, if you're only going to apologize, then apology accepted. You can leave me in peace now."
YunHo's heart ached from that cold tone JaeJoong used. "Jae, stop being bitter about this, please. It's already done. We're all together now. Why can't you let it go?" His anger surfaced, but he tried his best to control it.
The lead singer was silent for a while, and it took YunHo a few heartbeats to realized that JaeJoong was shaking. "Boo, what's wrong?"
"You know why I can't let it go, YunHo? Because it hurt a lot more than what you could imagine. It hurt like crazy when you said that we were on our own. It felt like you ripped my heart from my chest that day you looked like you didn't care. Those nights I spend in my room, thinking about you, only you, it hurt. I felt like I already consumed my tears, but when ChangMin secretly sends me a picture of you sleeping, or even just standing by the window, I cry all over again. I can't let it go, YunHo, because that day you led us out of the apartment, I knew you didn't love me. Not the way I want you to. And I could've lived with that. But knowing that you really didn't care, knowing that what little space we had in your heart was already unavailable for us, for me, hurt more than all the injuries I had to endure."
YunHo, realizing a tad bit later that JaeJoong confessed his love for him, though indirectly, embraced the lead singer tightly.
"JaeJoong. Joongie. BooJae. Boo. Shh. It's alright. I'm here. I love you, too. I love you. It's alright. We're five again. It's alright." he whispered, as to soothe the brown-haired angel.
JaeJoong looked up form his place on YunHo's chest. "You love me?" All he received was a light peck on the lips and a tighter embrace and those were enough for him to wrap his arms around YunHo's body as well.
Moments later find the couple wrapped in JaeJoong's blanket, arms still around each other.
"Boo, someone once told me that protecting someone means you love that person. And I'm sorry I wasn't able to protect you. But I promise with all my heart that I will protect you starting today, until always. I may not always be able to protect you physically, but I will do all that I can to protect your heart and your beautiful soul."
JaeJoong only smiled, as he was rendered speechless by YunHo's promise. He gazed at the taller man lovingly, stroking his cheek. Somehow, even when he knows that there will be times when he and YunHo would hurt each other, the latter would still do his best to keep that promise. "I love you, YunHo."
"I love you, too, Boo."
Note: There will be two sequels for this. :D Hopefully, everyone enjoyed this fic that was so lamely written. ALWAY S KEEP THE FAITH, though.