Another miserable failure.
So....where am I? I have accomplished nothing. I am a shitty friend and a terrible judge of character. I have failed at my education and my career. I am a failure as a parent and a husband and a friend. I am the loser that everyone I ever loved believes I am.
If I fight for what I believe in, it is wrong. If I am interested in something, if I care about something, it is something not worth caring about. If I am not interested, if I don't care, it gets thrown in my face time and time again then I am wrong for thinking that way...like I have control over it. I have brought nothing of value to anyone or anything I've come into contact with.
I slipped the noose around my neck, the rope broke. I put the gun in my mouth, it jammed. I am admitting defeat in this life, and yet I cannot end it. I want it to end. I wouldn't bother anyone ever again. I wouldn't ruin any other life that I touch. I would find peace. And the world would be a much happier place.
If I fight for what I believe in, it is wrong. If I am interested in something, if I care about something, it is something not worth caring about. If I am not interested, if I don't care, it gets thrown in my face time and time again then I am wrong for thinking that way...like I have control over it. I have brought nothing of value to anyone or anything I've come into contact with.
I slipped the noose around my neck, the rope broke. I put the gun in my mouth, it jammed. I am admitting defeat in this life, and yet I cannot end it. I want it to end. I wouldn't bother anyone ever again. I wouldn't ruin any other life that I touch. I would find peace. And the world would be a much happier place.