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how should i put this?
life is fine at the moment, but i feel as if im going through the motions all too much.
i miss companionship and having someone to be with very much right now.
my heart wants something but i can't give it what it wants. i dont have the power to do it.
i miss my old friends, and the way things used to be
when we all got along and didn't hate eachother and talk shit behind eachothers backs.
when we could go to dinner and newport together and not have a problem, and just have an all around good time. i miss those days.
i wish i could go back to the way things were and get out of this rut im in.
I have "friends" at school, but no one to show for it outside of that campus. Brad and Al are my only contacts and i barely ever spend time with them.
Things need to change in my life. i've already begun to go on a diet, im up to 10 lbs, and my goal is 25.possibly 30.
i want a real girlfriend again, not someone i can screw around with and to have a good time. someone i can talk to, and cuddle with, and not have to worry about sex.
things need to change for me or im afraid they never will.
ive pretty much lost all ambition to go to class, and my artwork and study habits are really starting to slack terribly.
something has to be done.
i need a change
someone
or even something.
i need to give up on this verdictless life and start living right.
life is fine at the moment, but i feel as if im going through the motions all too much.
i miss companionship and having someone to be with very much right now.
my heart wants something but i can't give it what it wants. i dont have the power to do it.
i miss my old friends, and the way things used to be
when we all got along and didn't hate eachother and talk shit behind eachothers backs.
when we could go to dinner and newport together and not have a problem, and just have an all around good time. i miss those days.
i wish i could go back to the way things were and get out of this rut im in.
I have "friends" at school, but no one to show for it outside of that campus. Brad and Al are my only contacts and i barely ever spend time with them.
Things need to change in my life. i've already begun to go on a diet, im up to 10 lbs, and my goal is 25.possibly 30.
i want a real girlfriend again, not someone i can screw around with and to have a good time. someone i can talk to, and cuddle with, and not have to worry about sex.
things need to change for me or im afraid they never will.
ive pretty much lost all ambition to go to class, and my artwork and study habits are really starting to slack terribly.
something has to be done.
i need a change
someone
or even something.
i need to give up on this verdictless life and start living right.