Phew...
It is nothing short of a miracle that I have not continued to lose hair at the rate I was losing it a few days ago. I've got those obnoxious tufts at the crown of my head now, but they'll pass in a few months...
I think accepting the fact that I am going to live in a hella stressful environment and just growing some balls and dealing with it have put me in a place where I have not been pulling out hair at every free moment. Additionally, spending a lot of time in the art building working on things that require two hands is also significant, I'm sure. Because when my hands are full and/or covered in glue I'm not about to go pulling out any hair I find.
I am still having moments where I lose it and I pull frantically, but it hasn't been happening on full day stints. I've gotten to a point this week where I will slip and pull a few hairs, feel better for that moment, but then remember I'll just feel worse for it later, and I do something about it. Like going to the art building or the LGBT center or coming to LJ and just typing. Because when I write these up, they usually go quite stream of consciousness, so I can keep typing without stopping much to think.
I got sushi for dinner tonight, just because I felt like it. My ZoetIC meeting was cancelled last minute, so I came back to the apartment to grab my wallet and then left again for a bit, which has kind of been my deal the past week or so. My mom might say I flit in and out like a bird, and I suppose she'd be right.
Looking forward to spring break...
Going to keep trying to come write everyday, because it's allowing me to keep a handle on myself and bury my emotions in a journal that most people won't read, so once I write it down and submit it through, it's well and truly done with.
Lots of run on sentences today... Guess I feel kind of scattered after trying to plan and schedule my accordion autobiographical book for Book Design. Geh, talk about frustrating. Luckily the prof was in her office while I was in the building working, and I could go and ask her about the issues and stuff. So there's that.
I've managed to piss off/annoy people still though, despite my near absence. *sigh* Suppose it's gonna happen. I even managed to continually make Alex pissed off at me, mostly because my mood has been so down and stuck in stress zone, so I snap at little things. That's why it's nice to hang about kranberryundead because she's always laughing and such, so there's hardly any reason to ever snap at her. She'll crack jokes like there's no tomorrow, and it's brilliant.
...I haven't seen her today... May explain why I feel vaguely... um... hmmm... word... vaguely distant, I suppose. I spent most of the weekend with her, so it's almost like being drained without her energy around to recharge the battery. Guess I'll have to steal her for an hour or two tomorrow. Perhaps after I go talk to Kittredge about the anime club being all in to help her with The Tori Cup, an event for the Pippi to Ripley Conference that's commemorating a girl in the English Dept and Sigma Tau Delta (the honor society for English majors/minors) who passed away over winter break. So it's an honor that she's outsourced to me to ask me to assist. So of course that's all gladly.
Okay. So. Plans! Tomorrow: Doctor's appointment where I tell the doctor that I still haven't gotten physical therapy because I've been busy and my neck has actually been alright; Hunt down Kittredge, who will likely be in her office; perhaps locate Twomey and catch up, see if there's anything I ought to be doing before graduation; and then I will have class. After Symbolic logic I will ask Klee if he would like help grading tests and update him on stuff concerning my students (and I guess technically they're also his...).
Yeah. So I'll do that.
I think accepting the fact that I am going to live in a hella stressful environment and just growing some balls and dealing with it have put me in a place where I have not been pulling out hair at every free moment. Additionally, spending a lot of time in the art building working on things that require two hands is also significant, I'm sure. Because when my hands are full and/or covered in glue I'm not about to go pulling out any hair I find.
I am still having moments where I lose it and I pull frantically, but it hasn't been happening on full day stints. I've gotten to a point this week where I will slip and pull a few hairs, feel better for that moment, but then remember I'll just feel worse for it later, and I do something about it. Like going to the art building or the LGBT center or coming to LJ and just typing. Because when I write these up, they usually go quite stream of consciousness, so I can keep typing without stopping much to think.
I got sushi for dinner tonight, just because I felt like it. My ZoetIC meeting was cancelled last minute, so I came back to the apartment to grab my wallet and then left again for a bit, which has kind of been my deal the past week or so. My mom might say I flit in and out like a bird, and I suppose she'd be right.
Looking forward to spring break...
Going to keep trying to come write everyday, because it's allowing me to keep a handle on myself and bury my emotions in a journal that most people won't read, so once I write it down and submit it through, it's well and truly done with.
Lots of run on sentences today... Guess I feel kind of scattered after trying to plan and schedule my accordion autobiographical book for Book Design. Geh, talk about frustrating. Luckily the prof was in her office while I was in the building working, and I could go and ask her about the issues and stuff. So there's that.
I've managed to piss off/annoy people still though, despite my near absence. *sigh* Suppose it's gonna happen. I even managed to continually make Alex pissed off at me, mostly because my mood has been so down and stuck in stress zone, so I snap at little things. That's why it's nice to hang about kranberryundead because she's always laughing and such, so there's hardly any reason to ever snap at her. She'll crack jokes like there's no tomorrow, and it's brilliant.
...I haven't seen her today... May explain why I feel vaguely... um... hmmm... word... vaguely distant, I suppose. I spent most of the weekend with her, so it's almost like being drained without her energy around to recharge the battery. Guess I'll have to steal her for an hour or two tomorrow. Perhaps after I go talk to Kittredge about the anime club being all in to help her with The Tori Cup, an event for the Pippi to Ripley Conference that's commemorating a girl in the English Dept and Sigma Tau Delta (the honor society for English majors/minors) who passed away over winter break. So it's an honor that she's outsourced to me to ask me to assist. So of course that's all gladly.
Okay. So. Plans! Tomorrow: Doctor's appointment where I tell the doctor that I still haven't gotten physical therapy because I've been busy and my neck has actually been alright; Hunt down Kittredge, who will likely be in her office; perhaps locate Twomey and catch up, see if there's anything I ought to be doing before graduation; and then I will have class. After Symbolic logic I will ask Klee if he would like help grading tests and update him on stuff concerning my students (and I guess technically they're also his...).
Yeah. So I'll do that.