Would that be weird? Yeah, probably.
I find myself more and more thinking about my ASL and wishing that I had more opportunities to use it. I really love it and those classes are the best out of my week, but when I'm outside the classroom (heck, even in it) I rarely get the opportunity to sign with anyone. What's the point? I wonder. It makes me really depressed when I think that I can never use this skill which I've wanted for so long.
And it's not even that I don't get to use it in a conversation, though that alone is a sad enough fact. But on top of that, if I ever do use it, even if it's on accident and I start signing when I'm speaking or describing something (especially directions, I sign a lot when I give directions), then my friends mock me or make fun of me. (Sorry guys, but it's true. And it honestly sucks.) I *love* ASL and yet people manage to make me feel ashamed of it. What is that?
I've been contemplating recently about getting a pair of earplugs and just going a weekend not hearing. Call me crazy, but I think it'd be a fun and enlightening experience. Maybe if we do a food/errands/mall run this weekend I'll buy a pair.
But yeah... I finally have my dream language in my hands and no chances to utilize it. Frustration. I do intend to try and take a BSL class in England, if they're offered. They have a completely different alphabet, which may be tricky. >_< I probably won't even get a chance to take the class, so why worry over it. And if I did get to take it, who'd I use it with? Myself? Then my friends would just make fun of me more.
Whatever. Bedtime.
(P.S.: ~130 days.)
And it's not even that I don't get to use it in a conversation, though that alone is a sad enough fact. But on top of that, if I ever do use it, even if it's on accident and I start signing when I'm speaking or describing something (especially directions, I sign a lot when I give directions), then my friends mock me or make fun of me. (Sorry guys, but it's true. And it honestly sucks.) I *love* ASL and yet people manage to make me feel ashamed of it. What is that?
I've been contemplating recently about getting a pair of earplugs and just going a weekend not hearing. Call me crazy, but I think it'd be a fun and enlightening experience. Maybe if we do a food/errands/mall run this weekend I'll buy a pair.
But yeah... I finally have my dream language in my hands and no chances to utilize it. Frustration. I do intend to try and take a BSL class in England, if they're offered. They have a completely different alphabet, which may be tricky. >_< I probably won't even get a chance to take the class, so why worry over it. And if I did get to take it, who'd I use it with? Myself? Then my friends would just make fun of me more.
Whatever. Bedtime.
(P.S.: ~130 days.)