General Life Mutterings
So lately, life has been rather bland. Not that that's really a terrible thing though. Life can't always be exciting!
The problem is that I'm only 24, and have more free time than I care to admit. I should be doing things I love, and spending my time on passionate pursuits! Instead, I read a few pages of a book, watch a movie in the background while cleaning, neglect a load of laundry, and then possibly play Nazi Zombies with my roommate before going running and then retiring for the night.
Sure, it's a weeknight, so I can't go on any fantastic adventures or anything, but still! Why does everything seem like it's just filling and passing my time, instead of time draining away while I do something I love!??
I think the problem I have is that I'm not really passionate about anything. I like reading, movies, running, music, playing piano, singing, practicing musical saw, bicycling, video games, etc. But I don't LOVE any of those things. I might be passionate about running if I could only DO IT without getting shin splints! >:-( I might be passionate about motorcycling if I had anyone else to ride with, or the money to go on trips.
Anyway, so lately I've been trying to do new things and find my passion. I've started playing the musical saw, which is really pretty and a lot of fun, but I need a bow to be able to play it right. I'm going to learn how to program Ruby, which has always been exciting to me, so we'll see how that goes.
I'm trying to do things I know I need to do, as opposed to being lazy. I'm wondering if maybe I just can't seem to enjoy fun things when I know there are all sorts of neglected things I know need doing first. Sitting down and reading would probably be more fun if I knew I didn't have a load of laundry waiting, a room that needs vacuuming and dusting, a bathroom that needs cleaning, and a rat cage that needs changing.
Oh well, such is life. Keep pushing forward, right?
The problem is that I'm only 24, and have more free time than I care to admit. I should be doing things I love, and spending my time on passionate pursuits! Instead, I read a few pages of a book, watch a movie in the background while cleaning, neglect a load of laundry, and then possibly play Nazi Zombies with my roommate before going running and then retiring for the night.
Sure, it's a weeknight, so I can't go on any fantastic adventures or anything, but still! Why does everything seem like it's just filling and passing my time, instead of time draining away while I do something I love!??
I think the problem I have is that I'm not really passionate about anything. I like reading, movies, running, music, playing piano, singing, practicing musical saw, bicycling, video games, etc. But I don't LOVE any of those things. I might be passionate about running if I could only DO IT without getting shin splints! >:-( I might be passionate about motorcycling if I had anyone else to ride with, or the money to go on trips.
Anyway, so lately I've been trying to do new things and find my passion. I've started playing the musical saw, which is really pretty and a lot of fun, but I need a bow to be able to play it right. I'm going to learn how to program Ruby, which has always been exciting to me, so we'll see how that goes.
I'm trying to do things I know I need to do, as opposed to being lazy. I'm wondering if maybe I just can't seem to enjoy fun things when I know there are all sorts of neglected things I know need doing first. Sitting down and reading would probably be more fun if I knew I didn't have a load of laundry waiting, a room that needs vacuuming and dusting, a bathroom that needs cleaning, and a rat cage that needs changing.
Oh well, such is life. Keep pushing forward, right?