i swear my LJ is only used for bitching and moaning and venting.
Call me crazy for writing
about this in my LiveJournal
Im at the point
where i dont give a fuck.
I making myself really believe im ookay and i am.
it isnt the end of my world.
just a large part of it gone.
After we broke up...we still had sex everday.
everyone of those days he still yelled at me and purposely made me cry.
Somehow i thought he would stop, if i had sex with him.
and that someday it would all get better.
I love him.
And today.
He drove up to riverside to be with the Newgirl hes into.
The thought of them having sex...him kissing her even holding her, makes my stomach clench so bad.
I can be replaceale for a million reasons.
but I guess this girl always had his heart. I guess thats why it was so easy for him to get over me..and why he was over me a day after we broke up.
My parents and i arent talking, they think im being really stupid about this, and that i diserve it for being so stupid about us. I really think thats what half of you think too. Avoiding me when i ask for help and all.
I think thats why i feel so good when im doing fine, Im fine because of me. So i still have something good in here.
about this in my LiveJournal
Im at the point
where i dont give a fuck.
I making myself really believe im ookay and i am.
it isnt the end of my world.
just a large part of it gone.
After we broke up...we still had sex everday.
everyone of those days he still yelled at me and purposely made me cry.
Somehow i thought he would stop, if i had sex with him.
and that someday it would all get better.
I love him.
And today.
He drove up to riverside to be with the Newgirl hes into.
The thought of them having sex...him kissing her even holding her, makes my stomach clench so bad.
I can be replaceale for a million reasons.
but I guess this girl always had his heart. I guess thats why it was so easy for him to get over me..and why he was over me a day after we broke up.
My parents and i arent talking, they think im being really stupid about this, and that i diserve it for being so stupid about us. I really think thats what half of you think too. Avoiding me when i ask for help and all.
I think thats why i feel so good when im doing fine, Im fine because of me. So i still have something good in here.