holy shit
I just broke up with Ian. Everyone said I should, even Sarah.
Which is stupid, because I'm infatuated with the kid, but I'm tired of being put on the back burner. He always says friends are important and I'm not going to change him, blah blah blah, but there's a difference between keeping your relationship with your friends and perpetually blowing off the girl you say you're dating. Girlfriends, as a general rule, are priority. And I think a lot of the time I'm not brazen enough to stand up for myself and say what I deserve, so I'm actually pretty shocked I said this tonight.
I consider this both fucking ridiculous, shitty, and painfully overdue.
I am so infatuated with this kid, it's sick. I'm also usually a very passionate person who doesn't think OR act logically when it comes to guys, so this is a huge step in the logical direction, me breaking up with someone because I can see the situation isn't what it should be, even when I like the guy.
And these run on sentences I've just created? They also show that I'm still trying to convince MYSELF that this was the right decision.
The dumbest part is that his phone didn't have service (or something) which forced me to leave a voicemail. How middle school, breaking up with someone via voicemail. But if it didn't happen then, it never would have happened!
(again, trying to convince myself, as well as others...)
And no one will answer their phone to give me moral support. And I'm home alone tonight. How lonely.
It was a good decision, Kristine. I promise.
Which is stupid, because I'm infatuated with the kid, but I'm tired of being put on the back burner. He always says friends are important and I'm not going to change him, blah blah blah, but there's a difference between keeping your relationship with your friends and perpetually blowing off the girl you say you're dating. Girlfriends, as a general rule, are priority. And I think a lot of the time I'm not brazen enough to stand up for myself and say what I deserve, so I'm actually pretty shocked I said this tonight.
I consider this both fucking ridiculous, shitty, and painfully overdue.
I am so infatuated with this kid, it's sick. I'm also usually a very passionate person who doesn't think OR act logically when it comes to guys, so this is a huge step in the logical direction, me breaking up with someone because I can see the situation isn't what it should be, even when I like the guy.
And these run on sentences I've just created? They also show that I'm still trying to convince MYSELF that this was the right decision.
The dumbest part is that his phone didn't have service (or something) which forced me to leave a voicemail. How middle school, breaking up with someone via voicemail. But if it didn't happen then, it never would have happened!
(again, trying to convince myself, as well as others...)
And no one will answer their phone to give me moral support. And I'm home alone tonight. How lonely.
It was a good decision, Kristine. I promise.