feelings and such
so what are you supposed to do when you start to feel different about someone you care so much for?
i don't know if this is me just pushing away, or if this is a real feeling.
why is it that everyone always seems to come before me, it's so confuzing to me. i don't understand. i always worry about others then me. maybe im wrong in this. maybe im just darn right stupid.... i have no idea. but it's starting to get to me....
maybe i should start worring about friends more then ones that i love.
i can't wait till florida. i need the time to just sit and think about what i want in my life. and consider if what i have, is right for me. and if not, the time will have come for me to change things....
i hate change with a passion... but in the end i guess it will have to be done and the result will have to be lived with.
i don't know if this is me just pushing away, or if this is a real feeling.
why is it that everyone always seems to come before me, it's so confuzing to me. i don't understand. i always worry about others then me. maybe im wrong in this. maybe im just darn right stupid.... i have no idea. but it's starting to get to me....
maybe i should start worring about friends more then ones that i love.
i can't wait till florida. i need the time to just sit and think about what i want in my life. and consider if what i have, is right for me. and if not, the time will have come for me to change things....
i hate change with a passion... but in the end i guess it will have to be done and the result will have to be lived with.