Confused mind, part 3 (UruhaXKai)
Name: Confused minds
Author: Mizuki (meXD)
Band: Gazette
Pairing: UruhaXKai, KaiX?
Rating: pg-13/R ??(I'm not sure>.>)
Chapter: 3/?
Disclaimer: I don’t own anyone in this fic…*sobs*
Notes: I wrote this a looong time ago already, just didn’t got the time to type it^^;; well, I have part 4 and 5 ready on paper aswell, I hope to post them soon^^ and I know, this part isn’t exactly the most interesting to read, but it’ll get better in the next parts, I promise!!
Summary: Kai and his lover break up. But the things he told Kai in their last conversation makes Kai feel confused. Does Uruha really love him, more than just close friends. Or was his ex-lover playing a trick on him??
Cross Posted at: gazette_yaoi, jrockyaoi, kaix_xkai
Previous parts: Part 1, part 2
Part 3
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When I woke up the next morning, I felt, needless to say, awful. I was still laying in Uruha’s arms, who was sleeping peacefully, at least, it looked like that to me. Without making any noise I slipped out of bed, through the door onto the balcony.
It was early in the morning, the sun still had to rise yet. It was slightly cold, but I thought it was actually refreshing.
I stood there for a while, I already lost track of time as I watched the sun rise.
It’s weird how you can actually space out for hours. But once you wake up from your trance forget what you had been thinking of only mere minutes ago.
It’s like you where never thinking at all.
Right now, only god knows what I had been thinking of since I walked through that door. ‘cause I sure as hell couldn’t remember.
I sighed and leaned against the railing of the balcony. I wondered if Uruha was awake already. I guess not. He’s a deep sleeper, especially after I kept him awake for most of the night. He’ll most likely sleep till noon.
My previous thoughts where blown from my mind as a pair of strong arms wrapped around my cold body.
“You shouldn’t be standing outside alone, in nothing more than a t-shirt and a pair of boxers” Uruha told me.
I only nodded slightly and leant back into Uruha’s embrace.
Now, when I felt Uruha’s warm body pressed against mine, I noticed how cold I actually was.
We where both silent for a while. Just leaning against each other, both looking at the world wake up slowly.
It actually felt nice, to have Uruha this close to me. It felt good. Overall, it just felt perfect.
“Because he loves you” Again, his voice just wouldn’t stop hunting me.
‘As a friend!!’ I shouted back in my mind. ’..right?’ I added a bit unsure. I frowned, where did that came from?
My inner conversation stopped as Uruha pulled back.
“Uru?” I asked soft, my voice hoarse from not using it for a while, and crying a lot. I had to be honest about one thing, I was disappointed at the loss of Uruha’s warm body against mine….
Wait…why was I disappointed of such a thing….
“I made breakfast, let’s eat it before it gets cold” Uruha answered my previous question.
For a moment, I forgot everything and I lost the ability to speak, which had me in the end, just standing still and gaping at Uruha.
Since when was Uruha capable preparing food?! Since when did Uruha learn to cook?!
“Well?? Let’s go back inside ne~” He said smiling, tugging me inside. I was just too surprised to do more than just let him drag me towards his kitchen.
“Uru…since when can you cook??” I managed to stutter when I found my voice back.
He just grinned, handed me and walked into the kitchen. I could only stare at the breakfast he had prepared for us. It was literally breathtaking. I was stunned by the fact, Uruha could cook. But I was even more stunned to know he actually could cook something that looked and smelled so delicious.
We both sat down, opposite of each other. Without a word, Uruha handed my some kind of book.
“It’s a book with recipes I got from our fans when I moved here” He explained to me.
I nodded and flipped through some pages. I was sure as hell going to ask Uruha if I could borrow it someday, it had some really nice looking recipes in it.
“That’s sweet” I commented. It really was and it reminded me of the pocket calendar I got as birthday gift last year. A small smile crept on my face. I had carried the pocket calendar with me for the whole year. Right now, it was actually still in my pocket of my coat.
“Let’s eat ne” Uruha said smiling brightly at me. I guess me smiling again, made him smile too.
I probably would do the same if our roles where changed.
I nodded and started to eat the breakfast Uruha had prepared.
“I-it’s delicious” I managed to speak after a few bites.
“I’m glad you like it” He replied smiling.
After that our conversation died and neither of us made an attempt to start one again. We just continued to eat in silence. Something I really preferred while eating.
After we finished breakfast, and Uruha had borrowed me one of his old jeans (one that wasn’t too long for me) we went to get my stuff out of his car.
We spend the rest of that day re-decorating my new room, and unpacking my stuff. Something that Uruha really seemed to enjoy doing.
As most of my stuff was unpacked and placed where it should be, I silently looked around my new room. Uruha was in the kitchen, making coffee for us.
I sighed and closed my eyes. Music softly playing on the back ground. I had already forgotten I put it on.
In the corner of my new room, was an unopened black box standing. I frowned as I remembered what was in it.
I suddenly sat up straight, surprised I noticed that since Uruha and I ate breakfast, I hadn’t thought about Him for the rest of the day.
I guess it was a good decision to stay at Uruha’s place. The blonde guitarist helped me to forget about Him.
I was confused. That stupid conversation kept repeating in my mind.
Why did he say that? Did Uruha really love me?
And more important, what would I do if Uruha did love me? What do I feel for the blonde guitarist?
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End part 3
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