Confused minds (UruhaXKai, Part 9)
Name: Confused minds
Author: Mizuki
Chapter: 9/?
Band: Gazette
Pairing: UruhaXKai(mentions of KaiX? and ReitaXRuki)(implied UruhaXAoi, KaiXAoi)
Rating: R
Genre: Angst/Drama
Disclaimer: no way my parents would alow me to keep them in my closet*sad*
Warnings: Not beta-readed
Notes: I'd like to apologize for taking so long with this. I promise to update soon again! Please forgive me m(__)m
Summary: Kai and his lover break up. But the things he told Kai in their last conversation makes Kai feel confused. Does Uruha really love him, more than just close friends. Or was his ex-lover playing a trick on him??
Previous parts: Part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5, part 6, Part 7, Part 8,
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Part 9
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(Kai’s POV)
Light finally made its way through the windows. After such a long night, A night without sleep, a night filled with tears, the morning finally showed it’s face.
It wasn’t one of those beautiful sun lightened mornings with chirping birds and laughter of kids outside. No, dark clouds passed over quietly, threatening to break down any moment. The only sounds outside was the wind roaring through the tree’s. Rain would soon start falling again.
I silently got up from my bed, dropping the pillow i had clung onto on the ground. With a sigh I opened the window, enjoying the fresh morning air. Letting the fresh wind carry away all my thoughts and worries.
I observed the clouds, realizing ho much I actually liked them.
Then suddenly, a gape made itself clear amongst those dark grey clouds. I could see a few lighter clouds glowing orange from the morning sun against a blue sky. Far away a bird chirped and I silently nodded to myself.
I wouldn’t let myself break over this. After all, Uruha never told me himself that he loved me like that, did he? No he didn’t.
I would build up those walls again and be happy.
Or at least pretend to. For the sake of Gazette.
A small smile played on my lips but it froze again as the gap in the clouds closes again.
But now I knew, that behind those dark clouds the blue sky was still there.
The hope wasn’t gone yet.
With a bittersweet smile I walk over to my closet, getting clothed. Yes, I will build up those walls, shut him out. It’s the only way I know to protect myself from breaking down in front of him.
My stomach alarms me that it;s about time to get some food inside. I take a deep breath to calm myself again.
‘I wonder if Uruha is up already...’ No...No. I shouldn’t think about him, I should try to forget about him.
Something that was easier said than done, for he was sitting next to my door when I excited my room, soundly asleep.
For what seemed an eternity I stared at him in pure shock. Why was he sleeping in front of my door?
I hadn’t even heard him coming home last night. But why...why didn’t he check upon me last night? Or what if he heard me?
A thousand thoughts ran through my mind. What should I do now? Leave him here or wake him up? But then I remember the promise I made to myself.
As quiet as I could I made my way to the kitchen, starting to prepare breakfast.
Something good, but simple. It didn’t took long or the table was set with fresh bread with eggs and two steaming cups of coffee.
Making my way back to the hallway I noticed Uruha hadn’t moved at all. Shaking my head I knelt down next to him and shake his shoulder.
“Uruha, wake up”
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(Uruha’s POV)
A hand shook my shoulder and with a startled gasp I opened my eyes.
‘Where the heck am I?’ Looking around I recognized my own hallway and suddenly I remember the events of the evening before.
‘Ah...seems like I fell asleep...’
It’s only then that I notice Kai knelt down next to me, a hand still on my shoulder and a smile on his face.
“Good morning Uruha” He stands back straight up, holding out a hand for me.
I frown slightly, accepting the hand and pulling myself back to my feet too. Groaning slightly at the pain in my back. I really shouldn’t sleep on the ground sitting against a wall ever again.
“Kai...Are you...Are you okay? Yesterday you-“ But before I can continue he turned around, cutting off my sentence.
“Ofcourse I’m okay, why shouldn’t I be?”
“But last night you-“
“I made breakfast, lets eat before it gets cold” Again cutting me off in my sentence. I frown more as he grabs my arm and tugs me to the kitchen.
We quietly eat our breakfast, well...He eats while I’m trying to figure out the the hell is going on.
“You don’t like it?” Kai’s voice startled me from my thoughts.
“eh?”
“Your breakfast. You don’t like it? Cause I know Reita doesn’t like my cooking and if you’ve grown tired of it I can cook you something else or I can go to a bakery or something and buy you something that you do like? Or is it your coffee? Do you want me to make a new one or-“
I stare at him dumbfounded as he continues to ramble about breakfast.
“And maybe orange juice or pancakes are better next time or I could-“
“Kai” I decide to cut him off, but he doesn’t listen to me.
“Or maybe I put too much pepper in you egg, should I make a new one? Or-“
“Kai!” I try again, harder this time and it works, he stares at me, question-marks written all over his face.
“Relax, I like the breakfast and my coffee tastes great too. And don’t listen to Reita, your cooking is amazing”
It’s quiet for a bit and a bright smile graces Kai’s lips.
“Thanks” He tells me, still smiling.
Yet I can’t help but notice how empty his eyes are. His smile not reflecting in them at all. Instead there’s the sadness I saw so often in his eyes before, yet he never tried to hide it from me, not after the first night he stayed here.
I can’t help but wonder.
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End of part 9
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First off, again I'd like to apologize for taking so long with this. I promise to update soon again! Please forgive me m(__)m
Please comment! comments makes me happy and happy me=more fics^^
Check my fanfic archive for more of my writings
Author: Mizuki
Chapter: 9/?
Band: Gazette
Pairing: UruhaXKai(mentions of KaiX? and ReitaXRuki)(implied UruhaXAoi, KaiXAoi)
Rating: R
Genre: Angst/Drama
Disclaimer: no way my parents would alow me to keep them in my closet*sad*
Warnings: Not beta-readed
Notes: I'd like to apologize for taking so long with this. I promise to update soon again! Please forgive me m(__)m
Summary: Kai and his lover break up. But the things he told Kai in their last conversation makes Kai feel confused. Does Uruha really love him, more than just close friends. Or was his ex-lover playing a trick on him??
Previous parts: Part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5, part 6, Part 7, Part 8,
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Part 9
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(Kai’s POV)
Light finally made its way through the windows. After such a long night, A night without sleep, a night filled with tears, the morning finally showed it’s face.
It wasn’t one of those beautiful sun lightened mornings with chirping birds and laughter of kids outside. No, dark clouds passed over quietly, threatening to break down any moment. The only sounds outside was the wind roaring through the tree’s. Rain would soon start falling again.
I silently got up from my bed, dropping the pillow i had clung onto on the ground. With a sigh I opened the window, enjoying the fresh morning air. Letting the fresh wind carry away all my thoughts and worries.
I observed the clouds, realizing ho much I actually liked them.
Then suddenly, a gape made itself clear amongst those dark grey clouds. I could see a few lighter clouds glowing orange from the morning sun against a blue sky. Far away a bird chirped and I silently nodded to myself.
I wouldn’t let myself break over this. After all, Uruha never told me himself that he loved me like that, did he? No he didn’t.
I would build up those walls again and be happy.
Or at least pretend to. For the sake of Gazette.
A small smile played on my lips but it froze again as the gap in the clouds closes again.
But now I knew, that behind those dark clouds the blue sky was still there.
The hope wasn’t gone yet.
With a bittersweet smile I walk over to my closet, getting clothed. Yes, I will build up those walls, shut him out. It’s the only way I know to protect myself from breaking down in front of him.
My stomach alarms me that it;s about time to get some food inside. I take a deep breath to calm myself again.
‘I wonder if Uruha is up already...’ No...No. I shouldn’t think about him, I should try to forget about him.
Something that was easier said than done, for he was sitting next to my door when I excited my room, soundly asleep.
For what seemed an eternity I stared at him in pure shock. Why was he sleeping in front of my door?
I hadn’t even heard him coming home last night. But why...why didn’t he check upon me last night? Or what if he heard me?
A thousand thoughts ran through my mind. What should I do now? Leave him here or wake him up? But then I remember the promise I made to myself.
As quiet as I could I made my way to the kitchen, starting to prepare breakfast.
Something good, but simple. It didn’t took long or the table was set with fresh bread with eggs and two steaming cups of coffee.
Making my way back to the hallway I noticed Uruha hadn’t moved at all. Shaking my head I knelt down next to him and shake his shoulder.
“Uruha, wake up”
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(Uruha’s POV)
A hand shook my shoulder and with a startled gasp I opened my eyes.
‘Where the heck am I?’ Looking around I recognized my own hallway and suddenly I remember the events of the evening before.
‘Ah...seems like I fell asleep...’
It’s only then that I notice Kai knelt down next to me, a hand still on my shoulder and a smile on his face.
“Good morning Uruha” He stands back straight up, holding out a hand for me.
I frown slightly, accepting the hand and pulling myself back to my feet too. Groaning slightly at the pain in my back. I really shouldn’t sleep on the ground sitting against a wall ever again.
“Kai...Are you...Are you okay? Yesterday you-“ But before I can continue he turned around, cutting off my sentence.
“Ofcourse I’m okay, why shouldn’t I be?”
“But last night you-“
“I made breakfast, lets eat before it gets cold” Again cutting me off in my sentence. I frown more as he grabs my arm and tugs me to the kitchen.
We quietly eat our breakfast, well...He eats while I’m trying to figure out the the hell is going on.
“You don’t like it?” Kai’s voice startled me from my thoughts.
“eh?”
“Your breakfast. You don’t like it? Cause I know Reita doesn’t like my cooking and if you’ve grown tired of it I can cook you something else or I can go to a bakery or something and buy you something that you do like? Or is it your coffee? Do you want me to make a new one or-“
I stare at him dumbfounded as he continues to ramble about breakfast.
“And maybe orange juice or pancakes are better next time or I could-“
“Kai” I decide to cut him off, but he doesn’t listen to me.
“Or maybe I put too much pepper in you egg, should I make a new one? Or-“
“Kai!” I try again, harder this time and it works, he stares at me, question-marks written all over his face.
“Relax, I like the breakfast and my coffee tastes great too. And don’t listen to Reita, your cooking is amazing”
It’s quiet for a bit and a bright smile graces Kai’s lips.
“Thanks” He tells me, still smiling.
Yet I can’t help but notice how empty his eyes are. His smile not reflecting in them at all. Instead there’s the sadness I saw so often in his eyes before, yet he never tried to hide it from me, not after the first night he stayed here.
I can’t help but wonder.
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End of part 9
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First off, again I'd like to apologize for taking so long with this. I promise to update soon again! Please forgive me m(__)m
Please comment! comments makes me happy and happy me=more fics^^
Check my fanfic archive for more of my writings