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I know I am a subway ride away from Manhattan, but it is just no fun without somebody to hang out with. I am that much of a pathetic social person that I can not really have fun by myself in a huge city full of amazing things to do. I am sure one day I will look back and think "what were you doing sitting in a shack in brooklyn while the world was waiting" but it's raining outside and I don't want to go anywhere. Maybe I shouldn't have stayed the few extra days just to hang out with him for a few hours every night. I had a really long weekend anyways, I am pretty worn out and maybe I should just go home.
I am so tired of not knowing what I should do. I have absolutely no ambition but to be happy, whatever that is. It's a very short term goal and it doesn't really extend past the next day. I know I have a year left of school, but I feel like its all sneaking up on me. What the hell am I supposed to do when I graduate. How do I compete with people who have had it figured out since they were children. How do I explain my situation to those who were born with a talent of undying interest in something so powerful that they have to succeed.
I am so tired of not knowing what I should do. I have absolutely no ambition but to be happy, whatever that is. It's a very short term goal and it doesn't really extend past the next day. I know I have a year left of school, but I feel like its all sneaking up on me. What the hell am I supposed to do when I graduate. How do I compete with people who have had it figured out since they were children. How do I explain my situation to those who were born with a talent of undying interest in something so powerful that they have to succeed.