bored at work as always - lol
wasssup. hope everyone had a lovely holiday we all know i did! last night i went to daras house for hanukah dinner with liana and liz and it was amazing. lol it was strange at first bc it was like hmmm were eating jewish dinner - but it was marvelous and the food was yumm. so we went to jays last night which, to say the least, was um fun. yea. me liana and dara had so much fun we left... haha we went to lee lees house and watched pirates of the cairbean in her new room. its amazing and i think im going to live there from now on. so beware liana if you find a lump on the couch - its me! i was talking to dara about him bc she knows everything about him and she said that he said that he didnt want a gf right now because he couldnt treat her right and he wouldnt be able to give her enough time which i thought, considering the circumstance, was really nice of him but ya know im not out looking for a bf but i just liked how we were. the 'us'meant something to me, obviously, but i guess not as much to him. he was telling dara that since im grounded he still wants to do whatever but he doesnt want to loose me. and she was like well you better tell ashley you plan on doing stuff with ohter girls bc shes going to find out anyways and end up not liking you and guess what fucking happened. granted i still love the kid. i just, i dont know. i just want to talk to him and still hang out with him just not all that it was before cause im not going through that again just to get ass raped by a girl named catie. bitch. i just want to be really good friends and then maybe who knows. i do miss him and it makes me sad to think of the past :o( :o( but the future is awaiting and im ready to be there. yea. i suppose i should go 'work'. hope everyone has a marvelous fantastic day. pray i see him tonight :o) haha love to all ~