hmmm
araraaaa discovering new things about someone who seemed to be a "typical" guy can be quite interesting~
a bit shocking... that for a few moments you don't know what to think of the person
but then when you think about it... it actually makes sense... then you start to empathize and get it...
lol no this isn't anything serious really hahahaha
at least something fun for my seemingly mundane and quite emo / angsty life as of late (yes RL talk here... fandom wise, other than HG issue, i'm pretty happy)
should i start to rant? i want to.... >_<
seriously... there are just some people you don't want to see or talk to anymore but you can't do that cuz it would be weird if you didn't and i'm not really a confrontational type unless the world calls for it, i.e. it's pissing me off too much that there's no other fucking way ^^; also my only solution is keep away slowly cuz really, i'm not the type to want to have someone hating on me....
ugh... this entry started with positive feelings but due to relatedness, it still went to negative ones...
seriously... i have it when i have irrational anger that i can't give a decent reason to. reason, i have one, but it's not a good one that i find "mature" enough.
aigoo.. i remember a year ago i just ranted on about how much i hated that word. but when it comes to it... it seems we all have to bend to that word to avoid the judging (or what i feel like are) eyes of the people around you.
i still hate it. but have to succumb to it....
if i had a choice i want to stay immature for a long time >_> gar... cuz really... i hate when people make me feel like i'm too old to be doing what i am....
wahahahahah random and with inconsistent flow... just like how my thoughts are lately... the reason why it takes me over an hour of staring at the ceiling while these irritating thoughts swim in my head before i fall asleep....
stress.. aigoo.. my skin is hating me cuz of it... >_> oh youth where art thou...
my eyes are hurting... hopefully this means i get to doze off right away... hopefully my dream won't be too tiring. too happy (cuz it will make me emo when i wake up) or too sad (same reason)... dreamless sleep is still the best.... the other night i had a inception-like one... i felt like i ran marathons when i woke up... without the weight-loss
ah lastly... there's been a plot in my head for half a year now.. i've been wanting to write it... but every time i start i can't seem to get the flow like i used to... it seems i get too easily distracted with RL... it seems the fic i wrote in my other journal is really the last >_<
and here i thought reading awesome writers like coley_merrin theclockiswrong black_goose etc would help me... seems i'm a hopeless case
it's supposed to be girl!hyuk with yoona, hannie, yuri, sungmin and of course, hae. but i can't seem to find where to start! or to end! damnit! *shakes self*
-no cut cuz it's my journal- pffttttttttttttttttt
a bit shocking... that for a few moments you don't know what to think of the person
but then when you think about it... it actually makes sense... then you start to empathize and get it...
lol no this isn't anything serious really hahahaha
at least something fun for my seemingly mundane and quite emo / angsty life as of late (yes RL talk here... fandom wise, other than HG issue, i'm pretty happy)
should i start to rant? i want to.... >_<
seriously... there are just some people you don't want to see or talk to anymore but you can't do that cuz it would be weird if you didn't and i'm not really a confrontational type unless the world calls for it, i.e. it's pissing me off too much that there's no other fucking way ^^; also my only solution is keep away slowly cuz really, i'm not the type to want to have someone hating on me....
ugh... this entry started with positive feelings but due to relatedness, it still went to negative ones...
seriously... i have it when i have irrational anger that i can't give a decent reason to. reason, i have one, but it's not a good one that i find "mature" enough.
aigoo.. i remember a year ago i just ranted on about how much i hated that word. but when it comes to it... it seems we all have to bend to that word to avoid the judging (or what i feel like are) eyes of the people around you.
i still hate it. but have to succumb to it....
if i had a choice i want to stay immature for a long time >_> gar... cuz really... i hate when people make me feel like i'm too old to be doing what i am....
wahahahahah random and with inconsistent flow... just like how my thoughts are lately... the reason why it takes me over an hour of staring at the ceiling while these irritating thoughts swim in my head before i fall asleep....
stress.. aigoo.. my skin is hating me cuz of it... >_> oh youth where art thou...
my eyes are hurting... hopefully this means i get to doze off right away... hopefully my dream won't be too tiring. too happy (cuz it will make me emo when i wake up) or too sad (same reason)... dreamless sleep is still the best.... the other night i had a inception-like one... i felt like i ran marathons when i woke up... without the weight-loss
ah lastly... there's been a plot in my head for half a year now.. i've been wanting to write it... but every time i start i can't seem to get the flow like i used to... it seems i get too easily distracted with RL... it seems the fic i wrote in my other journal is really the last >_<
and here i thought reading awesome writers like coley_merrin theclockiswrong black_goose etc would help me... seems i'm a hopeless case
it's supposed to be girl!hyuk with yoona, hannie, yuri, sungmin and of course, hae. but i can't seem to find where to start! or to end! damnit! *shakes self*
-no cut cuz it's my journal- pffttttttttttttttttt