Ooh, one more day until new Psych and Monk! (25 of 40)
I hit my editing goal for the day around 9pm, which was a lot earlier than I was expecting. Especially since I threw away almost an hour of editing time by dropping off one of my sister's friends at his house. I really didn't want to, but I guess that's how life goes. I was editing my video and making some progress, when my sister walked into my room and asked me if I could drop her off at her friend's house. Said friend's house is only about ten minutes away, so I said sure. Then she asked if I could drop her friend's boyfriend off at his house afterward, which turned out to be somewhere on the other side of Citrus Heights, and with all the construction they're doing on the roads over there, it ended up taking about twenty minutes to drive each way. I said no at first, because I really wanted to keep editing and I figured he could find a ride somewhere else. Sister keeps asking about it though (I guess she's not used to me saying no), and I manage to hold my ground for a while, insisting that I don't want to drive out of my way for someone I haven't even met when I have a deadline to meet.
Then she changes tactics to asking if she can borrow my truck for a few hours instead. After a few seconds, I give in completely and agree to drop the guy off, which makes me feel like a complete jackass. Really, that reaction doesn't make much sense, since if she drove herself I could edit with no more interruption at all, but for some reason, I really don't like her driving my truck. The only reason I can think of for it is that she's kind of a bad driver, but really, with a deadline so close, you'd think I wouldn't care. Huhm, it just occurred to me that I could have said no to her driving and still said no to dropping off Chris. See, it's times like this that really confuse me. Where is the line between being a jerk and being a pushover? I feel like giving in and dropping strangers off at places out of my way makes me a pushover, but at the same time I feel like a total jerk if I say no. I'm sure part of this confusion is due to my poor understanding of what's polite or not, but that doesn't change the fact that I have no clue when to say no and when to say yes. Hell, that sums up most of the things I do; if not with someone else's request, I'm giving in to my own impulses.
By the time I got home (honestly, shortly after I said yes), I was in a pretty bad mood. My forehead felt clenched for most of the drive. Thankfully, some time after I got home, pbtc_pero IM'd me out of the blue and we had a really nice chat that really cheered me up. It was exactly what I needed. Thanks again, Gracie. <3
So now I've got all but 41 seconds down and mostly set in place, and now I've reached the super intense part of the song. It's such a busy section that it's the only part I have scheduled for Friday. Assuming I have enough footage for it (which I can't imagine I wouldn't; it's the solo and I doubt it could get much more random looking than the rest of the video), it probably won't take nearly as long as I expect it to, so I just might be able to finish the entire video tomorrow, since I handed off my hours for the day. Even if I do finish it though, I'll probably hang onto it at least until Saturday to see if I get another disc of source by then. A little extra footage probably won't help too much, but I may as well take a look before giving up on it. The video's already turned out pretty different than I planned for it, so a little more change can't hurt too much.
I gassed up my truck earlier today, and I was expecting to break $120 this time, but surprisingly it only cost $106. That made me very happy, although my bank account doesn't seem to be registering the fact that they credited the remaining $19 back to my card. If it doesn't show up by the time the $125 charge clears, I'm gonna have to head back over there and see what's going on. Speaking of gassing up today, I had breakfast at Sonic with my dad and sister this afternoon beforehand, and my dad left me with one of his bank cards to get some cash, because I had jokingly said yes when he asked if I wanted some and he took me for serious. When I found out he'd given us the card, without thinking I asked my sister to call him and ask if he wanted me to use that card to fill up, since he's had us do that before. What didn't occur to me at first was that usually that was for the van, and I have more than enough money in my account to cover the fill up (wow, that sounds way too braggy :X), so as soon as she had started talking to him, I mentally berated myself for being so used to dependency. My brother always took care of his gas even when he was still living with us, and my older sister probably did too, since I'm pretty sure she was employed while she had her car. It's not that my dad minds providing for us; if he did, he wouldn't offer to help us as much as he can and has. Granted, he isn't a pushover, and he only has so much money, but he's still very devoted to my siblings and I. It sounds weird writing it out, but that's how it is. This being the case, I feel really hesitant to take advantage of him, both because that'd just be mean and because I won't be living with him forever, so I need to learn to become more self-sufficient. I rely on him way too much. :(
Well, it's getting late, so I think I'll call it a night. Here's hoping I wake up early enough to get a decent chunk of editing done.
Oh yeah, one more thing: my truck is very near the 100,000 mile mark. It hit 99966.6 get today, and I was gonna take a picture, but by the time I had pulled over it was 99966.7 already. T__T
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Then she changes tactics to asking if she can borrow my truck for a few hours instead. After a few seconds, I give in completely and agree to drop the guy off, which makes me feel like a complete jackass. Really, that reaction doesn't make much sense, since if she drove herself I could edit with no more interruption at all, but for some reason, I really don't like her driving my truck. The only reason I can think of for it is that she's kind of a bad driver, but really, with a deadline so close, you'd think I wouldn't care. Huhm, it just occurred to me that I could have said no to her driving and still said no to dropping off Chris. See, it's times like this that really confuse me. Where is the line between being a jerk and being a pushover? I feel like giving in and dropping strangers off at places out of my way makes me a pushover, but at the same time I feel like a total jerk if I say no. I'm sure part of this confusion is due to my poor understanding of what's polite or not, but that doesn't change the fact that I have no clue when to say no and when to say yes. Hell, that sums up most of the things I do; if not with someone else's request, I'm giving in to my own impulses.
By the time I got home (honestly, shortly after I said yes), I was in a pretty bad mood. My forehead felt clenched for most of the drive. Thankfully, some time after I got home, pbtc_pero IM'd me out of the blue and we had a really nice chat that really cheered me up. It was exactly what I needed. Thanks again, Gracie. <3
So now I've got all but 41 seconds down and mostly set in place, and now I've reached the super intense part of the song. It's such a busy section that it's the only part I have scheduled for Friday. Assuming I have enough footage for it (which I can't imagine I wouldn't; it's the solo and I doubt it could get much more random looking than the rest of the video), it probably won't take nearly as long as I expect it to, so I just might be able to finish the entire video tomorrow, since I handed off my hours for the day. Even if I do finish it though, I'll probably hang onto it at least until Saturday to see if I get another disc of source by then. A little extra footage probably won't help too much, but I may as well take a look before giving up on it. The video's already turned out pretty different than I planned for it, so a little more change can't hurt too much.
I gassed up my truck earlier today, and I was expecting to break $120 this time, but surprisingly it only cost $106. That made me very happy, although my bank account doesn't seem to be registering the fact that they credited the remaining $19 back to my card. If it doesn't show up by the time the $125 charge clears, I'm gonna have to head back over there and see what's going on. Speaking of gassing up today, I had breakfast at Sonic with my dad and sister this afternoon beforehand, and my dad left me with one of his bank cards to get some cash, because I had jokingly said yes when he asked if I wanted some and he took me for serious. When I found out he'd given us the card, without thinking I asked my sister to call him and ask if he wanted me to use that card to fill up, since he's had us do that before. What didn't occur to me at first was that usually that was for the van, and I have more than enough money in my account to cover the fill up (wow, that sounds way too braggy :X), so as soon as she had started talking to him, I mentally berated myself for being so used to dependency. My brother always took care of his gas even when he was still living with us, and my older sister probably did too, since I'm pretty sure she was employed while she had her car. It's not that my dad minds providing for us; if he did, he wouldn't offer to help us as much as he can and has. Granted, he isn't a pushover, and he only has so much money, but he's still very devoted to my siblings and I. It sounds weird writing it out, but that's how it is. This being the case, I feel really hesitant to take advantage of him, both because that'd just be mean and because I won't be living with him forever, so I need to learn to become more self-sufficient. I rely on him way too much. :(
Well, it's getting late, so I think I'll call it a night. Here's hoping I wake up early enough to get a decent chunk of editing done.
Oh yeah, one more thing: my truck is very near the 100,000 mile mark. It hit 99966.6 get today, and I was gonna take a picture, but by the time I had pulled over it was 99966.7 already. T__T
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