Why I am super shy about everything.
I'm always like...super shy about talking to anyone. Ever. Even online. I think I have the irrational fear that I'm a boring S.O.B. who's just weird and uninteresting to be around. Like...sometimes I think I even creep Mark out with half the shit I think about. It's nothing violent or unsafe or anything, just...fuckin' weird. But maybe that's just the artist-mind, as I've come to affectionately dub it.
But, like...I'm even timid about leaving comments on people's works or journals or tumblrs and telling them how cool their stuff is and things like that. Or being on AIM or anything. I'm TERRIBLE with being on any form of messenger, and I think it's because I'm so shy. It's actually cost me friends in the past, when they were all, "ZOMG YOU DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO ME? WHAT A BITCH YOU ARE." Which didn't help much. D: Sometimes I just disappear for a month or so from any form of contact.
I don't know...I think sometimes that I'm antisocial, but I know that's bullshit. It would probably be more like social anxiety disorder, but I'm not going to diagnose myself in any way, shape or form. It could just be that I'm super shy. Either way, I'm just quiet and pretty reserved. It's never anything against another person, that's just how I am, and I fear that it might effect how others judge me as it is. I don't want to seem like some silent bitch who thinks she's holier than everyone. Cuz I sure as hell ain't. :I
Meh. Sleep now. More contemplation later.
But, like...I'm even timid about leaving comments on people's works or journals or tumblrs and telling them how cool their stuff is and things like that. Or being on AIM or anything. I'm TERRIBLE with being on any form of messenger, and I think it's because I'm so shy. It's actually cost me friends in the past, when they were all, "ZOMG YOU DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO ME? WHAT A BITCH YOU ARE." Which didn't help much. D: Sometimes I just disappear for a month or so from any form of contact.
I don't know...I think sometimes that I'm antisocial, but I know that's bullshit. It would probably be more like social anxiety disorder, but I'm not going to diagnose myself in any way, shape or form. It could just be that I'm super shy. Either way, I'm just quiet and pretty reserved. It's never anything against another person, that's just how I am, and I fear that it might effect how others judge me as it is. I don't want to seem like some silent bitch who thinks she's holier than everyone. Cuz I sure as hell ain't. :I
Meh. Sleep now. More contemplation later.