I cant go on like this

[kiersty22]

running
there is no rest
why is there none?
i gave it all up
i’m not responsible anymore
then why did I fall
isn’t everything supposed to be sorted after
torn in too many directions
ah shit I tripped again
i’m trying
why can’t You fix it and make it all better
i’m constantly fighting
my hands are up ready to punch
i’m getting tired
can’t I just pause the world
can’t I just do things right
why do I hurt others
i swear I’m a nice person
at least that’s who I thought I was
but I’m changing
why do I keep disappointing people
why can’t I just find the time to talk
i mean its not like You’re ignoring me
why can’t I do my part
do I have too much
am I trying too hard in the wrong direction
where is the break
or am I simply going to break?
stop the waves from crashing on my brain
make it all clear
bring the peace
i need the grace
it’s supposed to be done with ease
where is the ease?
is it my fault again?
did I forget to do something, again?
am I going to have to redo this test?
i can’t fail my own life
i can’t
if I do….well I can’t
it’s not an option