Feb 28, 2005 12:17
Aaaaaaand I'm back. Just said bye to my baby. I can't be sad this time because he'll be home in 3 days again! Horray! This is really the first time I've been genuinely happy since probably Christmas. It's weird becasue last year right around this time and i think junior year, too, I just got really depressed. Actually it's more mid January to late February. Maybe it's just the time of year or because I'm breaking down after Christmas and New Years and everything. It's just a hard time of year for me every year. But now it's starting to get warmer and spring and my birthday are approaching. I love warm weather. I love wearing skirts and getting dolled up. I don't wear shorts though. I think it's beacuse I don't like how high they sit up on your hips. I'm self-concious of my thighs in shorts but not in skirts. I'm weird. Oh well what can you do? Ah I'm so over school right now. I have no idea what I want to do with my life and that really doesn't help to motivate me. I have no life direction at this point. I'm just a mess in life. I want to stay young forever and never have to work and just be able to spend money like it's my job. That should be my job-spending money. That would be amazing. There's so much that I want to buy but I can't because I have to save up so I can move the hell out of this house. I really just need to be on my own right now. I want to learn responsibility. I want to be able to make it on my own. I want to prove that I can do SOMETHING. Well, right now I need to order a book for econ, clean my room, burn dvds for my mom, deposit money in the bank, shower, and find out what the hell i'm supposed to do about a project that I was supposed to do for management like 2 weeks ago. Oops. Talk to you bitches later. Love ya!