Oct 15, 2006 16:31
Today ah yeah
second day of work went well getting on with people and job itself
College well that not so fun but i think if i focus i will do well
now main part of today sorry tania not that its your birthday im happy for you but my gran died and she was the closest relative i had really she and me would talk so much and plan together and we understand each other perfectly and now pow gone nice way to go in sleep but its not a comfort i keep remembering the past and plans and last time talked and last me her thing we did that was awesome we went on a day out and i bought lunch got go into both our type shops i help her out she helped me and we both laughed and got took by the street entertainer watched the birds and water and enjoyed the art and stuff and memories of making luch fo us both reading to her and if you know me i have never been a good reader or writer and she helped me so much and something shared all the time as she not get mad or srung up on each mistake or time like time didnt matter at all and the times we had on seesaws or walking around lake sor just sitting in a back garden or staying in cottage talking listening i alwaysed looked forward to seeing her than anything sorry tania but true she be there and help and i could have my input and when i felt i needed a congrats or push she do it with out me showing anything and i would no when to slow down or speed up or go with her for anything i got spend holiday with her the only time she been abroard and im one of very very very few that can say drank a pint with her as she never drank anything a sip was it in italy and what a time we had it was awesome i got share a room with her me and her stay awake for an age to talk and stuff and when in ireland we shared so much i saw her on back of a motor cycle and i was with her when she was free and wild at lake garda me her alone was what it felt like world in sync and times enless it was great she new about cars and we like similar ones and she new tons but never felt like it as never tried to out smart or anything always used an amazing language that so conforting and nice also the gaming we did together she was awesome competative and accepting she was the queen of scrabble though and soduku she rock the floor too the stories i was lucky enough to hear as all ignored them so funny fun and great i miss her so much i hope the memories stay