Gah
I hate my current living situation. I love Mike and Jamie but lets be honest, I'm one of the few people in this world willing too put up with either of them for any real length of time. I'm sick of the bills not getting paid and even more sick of never having time to myself. I watch Orion during the day because Kessa and David can't afford daycare right now and so I've always got him hanging on me and then when Mike and Jamie get off work if I don't hang out with them, then I'm moping and they feel the need to cheer me up (ie irritate the fuck out of me until I give in). I'm really a solitary person, I get grumpy if I don't get to spend time alone, with my thoughts, in silence. It wasn't too bad when I could go running to get away from them but with all the snow we've been getting hammered with, running isn't so much an option.
The electricity was turned off, and was off for more than a week, we just got it turned back on yesterday when Jamie borrowed the money from her dad. This is infuriating me. Mike and Jamie both work and always have money to go to movies and buy an endless stream of crap but when it comes time to fork over cash for the little things like keeping the lights turned on or the phone, their pockets are suddenly empty and they stand their blinking at me with these "oh woe is me" looks that make me want to kick them. Like Jamie, she spent 20 bucks the other day on Poke (its a Japanese candy for those of you that don't know). 20 dollars of freaking pretzel/breadstick things dipped in chocolate! WTF! But she didn't have any money to chip in for groceries.
I don't know why she and Mike seem to think that I have an unlimited source of cash. They don't bother to budget and then say crap like, "Kier, can't you just pay for it out of your savings and I'll get you back later?" Well yes, I could, but then there would be nothing left in my savings account. And they know me well enough to know that I wouldn't let them starve while I've still got money in that account and they take advantage of it. It was a huge act of willpower not to withdraw money to turn the power back on. There are three people in this apartment, I'm sick of being the only one that pays the bills and keeps the fridge stocked. Oh, enough whining. I've just got to learn to say no I guess.
So how is everyone anyway? I haven't talk to any of you in ages, the reasons for that are behind the cut, but you're not required to read it.