pianos don't lie

[kidxvicious]

i need to spend time with someone that believes i'm not insane
really really believes it

i feel awful
i love how the world works
when you really need someone to just talk to you
the someone who has always been so good at making you feel better when your feeling down on yourself
they seem too busy
so you don't want to make them
and you let them hang up knowing that they won't call
so you sit and think and think until your brain is mushy

a small part of you is okay with it tho
weird
i feel so selfish sometimes when it comes to you
i'm spoiled tho and thats your fault :-p
but sometimes, especially right now i need to here someone else tell me i'm okay
its more reassuring coming from you
and you haven't told me that in a long time

i'm happy, though, in general, lately

i'm so fucking whiney
how can you stand to read this?

i do love the newness
and depth
friendliness
honesty
something to smile about
its beautiful

i hope they like me on tomorrow, it will make life much simpler and i will be ultrapleased
see you all on sunday