Note on previous entry [personal entry]

[kidsnurse]

 The previous post, having, I pray, served its purpose, is now under lock and key.  If, however, anyone believes that a parent they know might see themselves in it, and benefit from it, I will happily make it available; just PM me.  To those who responded in writing, my heartfelt thanks.  I did not reply because my purpose was not to seek pity, or

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[chaoskir]

I thought about the son of my partner (I met him first as he was three, now he will be 20 at 23.12.08 and we both love each other very much. We got him often and he was almost every year with us at vacation) and my nephew as I read your last entry and I do understand you so much. As my best friend dies (best friend since I was a seven year old) I was so sad and Jan (that's the son of my partner) noticed that I wasn't such a normally chaoskir as I was usually. So he asked me if he has something done wrong. I just shake my head and said I'm sad. But nearly a year later (at the somer vacation) he told me (without any connection in while we talked about something - I don't know what we talked about) "Hey, Kiki, I'm glad you are not soo sad as you was the last year!" It was almost 11 month ago and he remembered that I was sad. Than I gave him (he was at that time a 13 year old) the explanation that Thomas died by an accident with his motorbike and there is no one only once day I don't think about Thomas (we was every day together as we were childs and we understand each other without words). And it's almost as like as it is now. I'm so often thinking about Thomas and than I cry but now, I can manage that I'm alone when I think about him and get tears (like now) in my eyes.