So this was pretty un-nerving
+So almost within the same time frame I pretty much have two friends telling me "Peace", "Bye", "We can't be friends any more" or "Things are just to different".
I don't know what to say for they are two very important people to me...To my life. But I guess what it comes down to isn't me it's about the other person.
1- Sam calls me over to his place to tell me something... It's that he and I can't be friends any more. That we tried and he tried, but can't do it. So, he tells me after this we are no longer friends. This hit me pretty hard...I had to fight my tears back cause what am I going to say? I didn't know what to say... After the shock of what he said I asked, "So does this mean we can't be friends until I am single or become single? Or is this forever?"
"Forever" he replies... You know those Acne Anvils in the old Loony Toon cartoons? Well it felt as if one was hanging from my heart. I guess I was being stupid when I thought we could be friends... Fooling myself. But he was such a big thing to me. I don't know how to explain it. But he means a lot to me...To my life and he doesn't even know. But how would he cause I wouldn't be the one to tell him. Cause then what? Am I going to tell him I am leaving Gilbert? No way...
But that doesn't mean I want to loose him forever. He's going to be one of those people I hear through other people. Our mutual friends... I guess I'm being selfish by asking to have him as a friend...But it's like he's gone gone GONE...
I think that's what gets me the most. I can call him, text him, e-mail him...He'll never reply... As if he were a ghost.
But he needs to do this for him and I will not stand in his way of being happy...
I will miss him very much.
I seem to be loosing more than one friend these days...
I don't know what to say for they are two very important people to me...To my life. But I guess what it comes down to isn't me it's about the other person.
1- Sam calls me over to his place to tell me something... It's that he and I can't be friends any more. That we tried and he tried, but can't do it. So, he tells me after this we are no longer friends. This hit me pretty hard...I had to fight my tears back cause what am I going to say? I didn't know what to say... After the shock of what he said I asked, "So does this mean we can't be friends until I am single or become single? Or is this forever?"
"Forever" he replies... You know those Acne Anvils in the old Loony Toon cartoons? Well it felt as if one was hanging from my heart. I guess I was being stupid when I thought we could be friends... Fooling myself. But he was such a big thing to me. I don't know how to explain it. But he means a lot to me...To my life and he doesn't even know. But how would he cause I wouldn't be the one to tell him. Cause then what? Am I going to tell him I am leaving Gilbert? No way...
But that doesn't mean I want to loose him forever. He's going to be one of those people I hear through other people. Our mutual friends... I guess I'm being selfish by asking to have him as a friend...But it's like he's gone gone GONE...
I think that's what gets me the most. I can call him, text him, e-mail him...He'll never reply... As if he were a ghost.
But he needs to do this for him and I will not stand in his way of being happy...
I will miss him very much.
I seem to be loosing more than one friend these days...