Ana: Chapter 5
Well here it is! Chapter 5 of "Ana". :) Personally, I'm not liking this chapter, but this is where my muse has taken me, so here you go!
July 28th, 2000
Taylor’s POV
I’m breathing heavily, as I carefully hover my head over the open toilet seat. For the past hour, I had suppressed the sudden urge to vomit. I had kept it down though, because the feeling had come over me, during “A Song to Sing”. It was our second to last song of the night, and I didn’t feel like it was the appropriate time to get up just then.
But by the time the entire concert was actually over, I felt that if I didn’t get to a toilet, fast and soon, my lunch would be all over, the stage. So as soon as we’d taken our bows and ran offstage, I ran past my brothers, and ran right to our tour bus. Luckily, it was already unlocked, mostly because our driver was already there. He gave me a questioning glance, but I didn’t care. I ran right to the bathroom, and I let today’s lunch contents up and out of my stomach.
After kneeling in front of the porcelain bowl for what seemed like hours, I finally stand up and flush everything down. I catch a glance from the mirror, across from me. My eyes look distant, and have bags under them. My hair is a mess, and my breath still has the slight aftertaste of sickness in it.
I guess maybe, this had all started with…him.
Who am I kidding? It is him. It always has been.
A slight knock on the door, startles me. “Tay? It’s Ana. Open up for a sec”.
I fully stand up now, wondering what she wants. Nevertheless, I open the door. There is Ana, standing there with an Advil in one hand, and a bottle of water in the other. ”I thought you could use these…”
“Thanks”, I say as I take the items from her, popping the Advil in my mouth. At then, I realize her eyes are still on me. “What?”
She blinks. “Nothing”, she says, looking down. “You just…look really pale”.
I roll my eyes. “Well duh. Ana, I’ve been throwing up for the past hour”.
She continues to stare at me. But the scary thing is, that she is staring at me, like she’s looking like right in my soul. Like, she knows something.
But all she does is purse her lips. “Alright then…
She turns to leave, but before she does she puts a hand on my shoulder. ”Tay…you know if you ever need to talk…my bunk is right next to yours”.
Then without another word, she leaves.
And thus, it feels like the beginning of the end.
But how much longer, can I hold on for? I run a hand through my hair once more, before turning of the light, and making my way to my bunk. But not before, I catch a glimpse of my younger brother on the sofa, playing yet another round of Mario Kart. He catches my gaze, and gives me a small smile.
But even that, makes my heart feel like it’s plummeting to the bottom of my stomach. Everything he does now, makes me feel…intense.
“Hey, you okay, now?”
I nod. “Yeah. Must’ve been something I ate earlier”.
He nods, and turns back to his game.
Later that night, as I lay in my bunk, I replay Ana’s words to me, in my brain
‘… If you ever need to talk…my bunk is right next to yours…’
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