Life-or whatever you call it
Life throws you curves-everyone knows this, but how you deal with these are what really counts. You can take the easy way out-but what will you learn from it? Life is complicated-DUH! Anyways, I've decided to try my damndest not to get involved emotionally with a guy for awhile. It just doesn't seem to be worth it. I end up screwing it up, or the guy isn't interested or just a tease. OR-the all time favorite-I'm the friend type. The "Columbian Lover" and I had a thing for awhile-but it ended due to...actually I don't know. It just did. We never "went out" but oh well. I've given up on him. Ryan-oh-lol-well, you know. Nothin' is going on with him anymore, neither of us try, and I don't really think he's interested. Ken, well, there was definetly potential, but he's gone now. Damn Marines. Well, I'm glad he got to do what he has always wanted. I'm happy for him, but I admit I cried, which is odd. We weren't that close, but I had a thing for him. Like always-I want what I can't have. I've spoken to Zach like twice this week. It doesn't feel great to see him and talk to him since I could never date him, but life goes on. School is now a large struggle. It never really was that hard before, but like they say-Junior year is the hardest. I'll survive-I always seem to pull through. I've become closer to some of my friends. I was worried about that for awhile-but it's getting alot better. I thought about how much I've changed over the past 2 years. It's alot. I'm still Debra (obviously) but different. Well, I've got to go read Adam's journal.