when the tables turn
so about 4 hours ago now, i officially dropped into sleep. the dream was like a really gay poltergeist movie. the dream is you know, stereotypical at first. i'm walking through a mall, about to buy things, and my dad says,"joseph you really need to address this materialistic & homosexuality spirit." which fueled me up. and then end scene. scene start up at my old house, (in Daphne, AL). my dad takes his belt off to beat me, but i take it instead. i beat him with it, until i notice that his face is twisted in contortion from pain, and in my dream, it's as though my vision has a specific middle point, and his face is emphasized. i look into his eyes, and see his face in pain, and i just gently caress his face. i hear laughter and turn my head to the left... and it's Lucifer laughing at us. and i see his angelic qualities, and then the demonic ones. i woke up freaked the fuck out.i want to cry about it, i don't know why. i guess because of the image. and also the meaning it takes on.
Hansel208: i just did about 5 seconds of serious thinking while i was out tonight
Hansel208: -which is notable, because its more than i did all afternoon
Hansel208: we havent known each other incredibly long
Hansel208: but i'm a fool in not recognizing or even considering the connections and fun and ease between us
Hansel208: dispite the rest of the world's dramas
Hansel208: and i know that, no matter under what catagory, i never want to lose the connection with you that we began
Hansel208: and i obviously can be an asshole. this much is evidant at this point
Hansel208: just try and keep that in mind during those moments and don't take me too gravely : O
Hansel208: so i'm sorry for that
Hansel208: yeah, i got lots of things to work out
Hansel208: and some shallow goals
Hansel208: but i know ultimately how i care about you (VS any of those other earlier suggested incentives) means so much more than that
Hansel208 is away at 9:35:35 PM.
Hansel208 returned at 10:17:07 PM.
Hansel208 is away at 10:18:30 PM.
Hansel208 returned at 10:19:28 PM.
Hansel208 is away at 10:19:44 PM.
Hansel208 returned at 10:19:46 PM.
Hansel208 signed off at 10:46:11 PM.
Hansel208: i just did about 5 seconds of serious thinking while i was out tonight
Hansel208: -which is notable, because its more than i did all afternoon
Hansel208: we havent known each other incredibly long
Hansel208: but i'm a fool in not recognizing or even considering the connections and fun and ease between us
Hansel208: dispite the rest of the world's dramas
Hansel208: and i know that, no matter under what catagory, i never want to lose the connection with you that we began
Hansel208: and i obviously can be an asshole. this much is evidant at this point
Hansel208: just try and keep that in mind during those moments and don't take me too gravely : O
Hansel208: so i'm sorry for that
Hansel208: yeah, i got lots of things to work out
Hansel208: and some shallow goals
Hansel208: but i know ultimately how i care about you (VS any of those other earlier suggested incentives) means so much more than that
Hansel208 is away at 9:35:35 PM.
Hansel208 returned at 10:17:07 PM.
Hansel208 is away at 10:18:30 PM.
Hansel208 returned at 10:19:28 PM.
Hansel208 is away at 10:19:44 PM.
Hansel208 returned at 10:19:46 PM.
Hansel208 signed off at 10:46:11 PM.