We Can Make It...
Title: We Can Make It...
Author: kidots
Pairing: JunSeung with slight mentions of DooSeob, and KiWoon (maybe not so slight, you be the judge)
Genre: Romance with friendship, Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: They're in love, definitely... but, Hyunseung wasn't sure he was the one...
A/N: A sequel to Special... (featuring KiWoon) and Now I Do... (featuring DooSoeb), both of which happened concurrently but in different viewpoints. This is about JunSeung and how they'd come together eventually.
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"I can't believe this is taking so long, what did Doojoon say to Yoseob for him to just run off like that?" Hyunseung asking the question more to himself than to Junhyung who is looking at the older boy in amusement.
"Whatever he said, I'm sure he'll be able to solve it with Yoseob. They're in love, forgiveness is almost certain between the two of them. Don't worry about it."
Hyunseung rolled his eyes at Junhyung's comment, "Don't worry about it? You don't know how emotional that boy can get especially when it comes to matters of the heart. What happens to the group if things doesn't work out?"
Junhyung said nothing to that, mentally weighing the statement, and wondering how emotional Hyunseung might get when it comes to matters of his heart. Will he use the excuse that the group will be in jeopardy if things doesn't work out between them?
They turned towards the door when they heard the door being unlocked. Kikwang became visible, with Dongwoon's arms around his waist as they were giggling and trying to walk into their dorm. When they realised that they were being watched, they quickly parted unsure of what to do in front of the two older boys.
Junhyung laughed, "It's okay. You don't have to act all shy in front of us, we were after all involved in the discussion to bring you two together." Hyunseung nodded, "We just didn't know what to say to you guys so we thought it best to let Doojoon and Yoseob do the talking. Speaking of which, did you happened to meet them on your back?"
Both Kikwang and Dongwoon smiled. "They should be fine when they're back. I texted Doojoon-hyung on the whereabouts of Yoseob-hyung". Kikwang swiftly added, "They could be making out just as we speak."
"Who's making out? Are you talking about us behind our backs?" Doojoon said as he smacked the back of Kikwang's head. "Hyung?!" "Wow, our Maknae is being protective already of his Kikwang," causing the maknae to blush and Kikwang slid his arm around the maknae's waist.
"So, I guess now that everyone is paired up, it just leaves the two of you. What about it, guys?" Yoseob gleefully said. Doojoon smirked and shaked his head at that comment. He noticed that Junhyung blushed slightly at it but Hyunseung plainly stated, "Excuse me, don't even think about it," and walked into the kitchen, leaving 4 speechless and 1 slightly heartbroken.
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"I don't think he really means it, Junhyung."
"I don't care."
"And I don't think you mean that either."
"What do you know, Doojoon, you didn't even know that Yoseob was in love with you."
"That's cause we see things better when it doesn't really involves us, you saw that Seobie loved me cause it didn't involve you, now I'm seeing that you love Hyunseung and I'm pretty positive he loves you too. I believe that maybe he doesn't realise it just yet."
"I honestly don't even know if I'm in love or not, but everytime I'm with him, I'm happy. I can't control myself from blushing when he compliments me, you know. I have the tendency of wanting to show him my best. I don't know, Doojoon. How did you realise you were in love with Yoseob?"
"Honestly, I'm not too sure either but I just felt upset when I thought he wasn't jealous about the whole leader-maknae affection that went on onstage those times, so I realised it mattered to me what Seobie felt about stuff when it involves me. I sorta want him to feel that I belong to him and him alone. Trust me, Hyunseung will realise it soon." Junhyung sighed, unsure of what Hyunseung is thinking. He thought he felt that Hyunseung shared the feeling but with his comment earlier, he wasn't so sure after all.
Looking at both Doojoon and Junhyung out at the balcony with Junhyung's frame resting heavily on the grill, Hyunseung realises the pain he must have caused him. Junhyung, I know you love me. Honestly, I love you too. I know it must have hurt when I said what I said earlier but I cannot do this to you, it would be unfair to you and you deserve much better.
~~~
Hyunseung had a fear of going into relationships. All his past ones were a failure. They always made sure to note to him that it was his fault they feel neglected, his fault they're unhappy. Always his fault that the relationship doesn't work. He doesn't want a relationship with Junhyung to be a failure. Partly due to the fact that they are in a group but more importantly due to the fact that he might not be able to handle it because he loves Junhyung too much for them to not work. He rather they stay the way they are so that he can always have Junhyung by his side.
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"Hyung, what are you doing?" Dongwoon asked, noticing that Hyunseung was staring at Doojoon and Junhyung. "Erm, nothing, just thinking about something. Come, let's go have dinner. I'm starving."
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"We need to get them together. We can't simply ignore them and let them be. Neither will make the first move and I think they're not going to like seeing the 4 of us around being all lovey-dovey with each other."
"But, Hyung, there must be a reason for Hyunseung-hyung to say what he said the other day. I saw he was staring at you talking with Junhyung-hyung out at the balcony that night. He loves him but is somehow afraid of something." Dongwoon said, with a nodding Kikwang resting his head on the maknae's shoulder.
"Don't be doing this in front of them." Doojoon swiftly said, "We don't want to hurt them." Kikwang pouted, and Yoseob added, "So, I should be sitting 5 miles away from you then?"
"What?!" Doojoon almost shrieked while grabbing hold of Yoseob who was starting to move away from him.
"I meant when they are with us." Yoseob smiling and shared a high-5 with Kikwang who was smiling broadly.
"So, any thoughts on how to make them come together?"
"We are given a 3 days break starting from tomorrow, maybe when we return from it, we can do something then." Doojoon said, gaining the approval from Yoseob.
"Okay then. By the way, Hyung, what are your plans for this break?"
"I'm going home to visit my family and friends and Yoseob is doing the same too."
"You both aren't going to spend time with each other? We're both going home too, the first two days at least, then the third day, I'm going to spend it with Kikwang." Dongwoon said with a smiling Kikwang linking his arms with Dongwoon's. Everyone laughed at that and continued their chatting for another hour or so.
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Meanwhile...
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Hyunseung was in the bedroom the 6 of them shared, packing for his trip home, when Junhyung who had been thinking long and hard on how to start a conversation with Hyunseung without sounding awkward asked, "Hey, where are you going for our break?"
"Oh, hey." a bit startled, Hyunseung stated, "I'm going home to see my family, you?"
"Me too. And I'm visiting some friends as well. Aren't you?"
"I don't think so, it's been a long time since I'm home and I want to spend all the time that I have with my family, I'm not sure when we are going to be able to do that again, what with our overseas promotion and new album coming as soon as we're back."
"Yeah, I guess you're right. So, you leaving early tomorrow?"
"Yeah."
"So, I guess it's see you after 3 days then."
"Yup, see you then." And with that the two of them never spoke again as all six of them started early the next day, heading to their respective homes for the 3 days break.
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Meanwhile, having planned to spend his days with his family, he didn't wanted to go anywhere else, but his mother had insisted that he spent his third day meeting his old friends and maybe catching up on things, "Hyunseung, why don't you call some of your friends out for tea or something, I'm sure you boys must have loads to talk about."
"It's okay, Mom. I want to spend my day with you and Dad."
"You're not going to leave us yet, you can spend tonight with us, moreover, I have things to do too, I can't spend time with you now."
"I can help."
"No, it's okay, call your friends, catch up, okay?"
"But, Mom..."
"No more buts, I have to go now, so I'll see you tonight okay?"
Before Hyunseung could argue anymore, his mother was out the door. Who should I call? Should I call Doojoon or Yoseob? No, I remember them saying they're going to spend today with each other. That goes for Dongwoon and Kikwang too. He sighed. What am I supposed to do?
Hyunseung grabbed his bag and having no specific place in mind, decided to go where his feet would guide him. He walked pass several shops, sight-seeing and taking in the many scenes of his hometown. Without realising it, he now stood in front of an ice-cream parlor. Instinctively, he walked into the shop and the place was rather crowded. Thankfully, no one recognises me. Pulling his cap down lower to cover his face.
Halfway into the shop, he noticed there was a guy wearing an orange beanie sitting in a far corner table. Something about that guy seems familiar, too familiar. Oh, it can't be him. But, it feels like him. Gathering up his courage, he tapped the guy on the shoulder, silently willing it's not him.
He turned, "Ah, you're finally here."
"What do you mean by that? And why are you here anyway?"
"I told you I'd be visiting some friends, remember? So, here I am."
"But... how did you know I'd walked into this shop? There's a chance I wouldn't have showed up."
"Well, yeah, but there's also a chance that you'd showed up and here you are."
Rendering Hyunseung completely speechless, he wished he hadn't tapped the guy in the orange beanie because now he wasn't sure whether he should stay and have his ice-cream or run out of the shop and not look back. He figured the former was a more appropriate course of action as he did not want to attract unwanted attention, moreover running away now is not going to do any good since they're going to meet up again tomorrow anyway, so he just sat back, unsure of what to say.
"So," Junhyung breaking the awkward silence, "did you mean what you said?"
Averting Junhyung's eyes, he slowly nodded.
"You're lying. I know you feel something for me too. I just don't get why you're avoiding it."
"I'm not avoiding anything."
"Yes, you are. I'm not an idiot. I can feel it too. You are in denial and lying to yourself if you say that you don't feel anything for me."
"I don't want to talk here, people might overhear us, let's take a walk." Grabbing his bag, Hyunseung headed for the exit, stealing as much time as possible to come up with a good enough reason to lie to Junhyung. How can he see it? Was I that obvious? What am I going to tell him?
Before long, Junhyung was walking alongside him, being very quiet. He must be waiting for my answer. Can I outright tell him? I should. I will.
"I wasn't lying when I said to not think about it. Frankly, I was telling it more to myself than to you. I've been in a few relationships and not one has ended well. I don't want us to be like that too. If things don't work out between the two of us, it'd be awkward for us and the rest and how are we possibly going to stay as a team anymore. I don't want to jeopardise that. It'd be unfair to you and the rest. We have all worked too hard to break up this good team." Hyunseung said, sounding on the verge of tears.
"What makes you think we won't make it?"
"I just do..." he trailed off.
Grabbing hold of Hyunseung by the shoulders, Junhyung turned him around, "We can try. You should give us a chance, give me a chance, give yourself a chance, we can make it."
Hearing Junhyung being so passionate in this, Hyunseung couldn't hold back his tears, "You don't understand, no one is happy with me, all of them said so themselves, I made them unhappy, neglected, and I will make you unhappy too, neglected and I don't want that."
"That's utter rubbish, whoever said that to you should get a good kicking from me. Now, look here," turning Hyunseung's face towards him, and wiping away the tears that was falling from that pretty face, Junhyung continued, "just by being next to you, I'm already very contented. But, loving you silently is not enough for me, I want to know that you love me too and we can make this work. There's no way you're going to make me unhappy, so get that nonsense out of your head. Instead, make me the happiest guy by telling me what I'm thinking is true."
Looking deep into Junhyung's eyes, "Are you sure we can make it?"
"I'm sure we can make it."
"Well, what you're thinking is true." Hyunseung said, smiling.
"And what might that be?" Junhyung teased.
"That I love you and probably always have since the moment I laid eyes on you."
Junhyung's smiled, "I love you too." before pulling Hyunseung in for a deep kiss.
~~~
"Ah, hyung, you're back. Had a great time?" Dongwoon asked with a smiling Kikwang by his side.
"Sure did. Yoseob and I spend the entire yesterday together, I take it you two had a great time as well."
Dongwoon and Kikwang both nodded. "So, what are we going to do with Hyunseung and Junhyung-hyung?"
"Let's talk about it when we're back inside our dorm."
All 4 of them started carrying their bags into the elevator and headed up towards their dorm.
"How are we going to bring them together?" Yoseob asked while unlocking the front door. When he opened it, all 4 were rooted to the ground, jaws dropped as they looked in astonishment at the two cuddled up on the sofa.
Junhyung asked, "So, who did you want to bring together?"
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Author's note: Didn't quite turned out the way I had expected it to. I'm sorry I took some time on this. *even then, this turned out bad* I have no idea how to write JunSeung. *sigh* I hope you like it anyway. (^_^)
Comments are much loved and appreciated. ♥
Author: kidots
Pairing: JunSeung with slight mentions of DooSeob, and KiWoon (maybe not so slight, you be the judge)
Genre: Romance with friendship, Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: They're in love, definitely... but, Hyunseung wasn't sure he was the one...
A/N: A sequel to Special... (featuring KiWoon) and Now I Do... (featuring DooSoeb), both of which happened concurrently but in different viewpoints. This is about JunSeung and how they'd come together eventually.
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"I can't believe this is taking so long, what did Doojoon say to Yoseob for him to just run off like that?" Hyunseung asking the question more to himself than to Junhyung who is looking at the older boy in amusement.
"Whatever he said, I'm sure he'll be able to solve it with Yoseob. They're in love, forgiveness is almost certain between the two of them. Don't worry about it."
Hyunseung rolled his eyes at Junhyung's comment, "Don't worry about it? You don't know how emotional that boy can get especially when it comes to matters of the heart. What happens to the group if things doesn't work out?"
Junhyung said nothing to that, mentally weighing the statement, and wondering how emotional Hyunseung might get when it comes to matters of his heart. Will he use the excuse that the group will be in jeopardy if things doesn't work out between them?
They turned towards the door when they heard the door being unlocked. Kikwang became visible, with Dongwoon's arms around his waist as they were giggling and trying to walk into their dorm. When they realised that they were being watched, they quickly parted unsure of what to do in front of the two older boys.
Junhyung laughed, "It's okay. You don't have to act all shy in front of us, we were after all involved in the discussion to bring you two together." Hyunseung nodded, "We just didn't know what to say to you guys so we thought it best to let Doojoon and Yoseob do the talking. Speaking of which, did you happened to meet them on your back?"
Both Kikwang and Dongwoon smiled. "They should be fine when they're back. I texted Doojoon-hyung on the whereabouts of Yoseob-hyung". Kikwang swiftly added, "They could be making out just as we speak."
"Who's making out? Are you talking about us behind our backs?" Doojoon said as he smacked the back of Kikwang's head. "Hyung?!" "Wow, our Maknae is being protective already of his Kikwang," causing the maknae to blush and Kikwang slid his arm around the maknae's waist.
"So, I guess now that everyone is paired up, it just leaves the two of you. What about it, guys?" Yoseob gleefully said. Doojoon smirked and shaked his head at that comment. He noticed that Junhyung blushed slightly at it but Hyunseung plainly stated, "Excuse me, don't even think about it," and walked into the kitchen, leaving 4 speechless and 1 slightly heartbroken.
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"I don't think he really means it, Junhyung."
"I don't care."
"And I don't think you mean that either."
"What do you know, Doojoon, you didn't even know that Yoseob was in love with you."
"That's cause we see things better when it doesn't really involves us, you saw that Seobie loved me cause it didn't involve you, now I'm seeing that you love Hyunseung and I'm pretty positive he loves you too. I believe that maybe he doesn't realise it just yet."
"I honestly don't even know if I'm in love or not, but everytime I'm with him, I'm happy. I can't control myself from blushing when he compliments me, you know. I have the tendency of wanting to show him my best. I don't know, Doojoon. How did you realise you were in love with Yoseob?"
"Honestly, I'm not too sure either but I just felt upset when I thought he wasn't jealous about the whole leader-maknae affection that went on onstage those times, so I realised it mattered to me what Seobie felt about stuff when it involves me. I sorta want him to feel that I belong to him and him alone. Trust me, Hyunseung will realise it soon." Junhyung sighed, unsure of what Hyunseung is thinking. He thought he felt that Hyunseung shared the feeling but with his comment earlier, he wasn't so sure after all.
Looking at both Doojoon and Junhyung out at the balcony with Junhyung's frame resting heavily on the grill, Hyunseung realises the pain he must have caused him. Junhyung, I know you love me. Honestly, I love you too. I know it must have hurt when I said what I said earlier but I cannot do this to you, it would be unfair to you and you deserve much better.
~~~
Hyunseung had a fear of going into relationships. All his past ones were a failure. They always made sure to note to him that it was his fault they feel neglected, his fault they're unhappy. Always his fault that the relationship doesn't work. He doesn't want a relationship with Junhyung to be a failure. Partly due to the fact that they are in a group but more importantly due to the fact that he might not be able to handle it because he loves Junhyung too much for them to not work. He rather they stay the way they are so that he can always have Junhyung by his side.
~~~
"Hyung, what are you doing?" Dongwoon asked, noticing that Hyunseung was staring at Doojoon and Junhyung. "Erm, nothing, just thinking about something. Come, let's go have dinner. I'm starving."
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"We need to get them together. We can't simply ignore them and let them be. Neither will make the first move and I think they're not going to like seeing the 4 of us around being all lovey-dovey with each other."
"But, Hyung, there must be a reason for Hyunseung-hyung to say what he said the other day. I saw he was staring at you talking with Junhyung-hyung out at the balcony that night. He loves him but is somehow afraid of something." Dongwoon said, with a nodding Kikwang resting his head on the maknae's shoulder.
"Don't be doing this in front of them." Doojoon swiftly said, "We don't want to hurt them." Kikwang pouted, and Yoseob added, "So, I should be sitting 5 miles away from you then?"
"What?!" Doojoon almost shrieked while grabbing hold of Yoseob who was starting to move away from him.
"I meant when they are with us." Yoseob smiling and shared a high-5 with Kikwang who was smiling broadly.
"So, any thoughts on how to make them come together?"
"We are given a 3 days break starting from tomorrow, maybe when we return from it, we can do something then." Doojoon said, gaining the approval from Yoseob.
"Okay then. By the way, Hyung, what are your plans for this break?"
"I'm going home to visit my family and friends and Yoseob is doing the same too."
"You both aren't going to spend time with each other? We're both going home too, the first two days at least, then the third day, I'm going to spend it with Kikwang." Dongwoon said with a smiling Kikwang linking his arms with Dongwoon's. Everyone laughed at that and continued their chatting for another hour or so.
~~~
Meanwhile...
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Hyunseung was in the bedroom the 6 of them shared, packing for his trip home, when Junhyung who had been thinking long and hard on how to start a conversation with Hyunseung without sounding awkward asked, "Hey, where are you going for our break?"
"Oh, hey." a bit startled, Hyunseung stated, "I'm going home to see my family, you?"
"Me too. And I'm visiting some friends as well. Aren't you?"
"I don't think so, it's been a long time since I'm home and I want to spend all the time that I have with my family, I'm not sure when we are going to be able to do that again, what with our overseas promotion and new album coming as soon as we're back."
"Yeah, I guess you're right. So, you leaving early tomorrow?"
"Yeah."
"So, I guess it's see you after 3 days then."
"Yup, see you then." And with that the two of them never spoke again as all six of them started early the next day, heading to their respective homes for the 3 days break.
~~~
Meanwhile, having planned to spend his days with his family, he didn't wanted to go anywhere else, but his mother had insisted that he spent his third day meeting his old friends and maybe catching up on things, "Hyunseung, why don't you call some of your friends out for tea or something, I'm sure you boys must have loads to talk about."
"It's okay, Mom. I want to spend my day with you and Dad."
"You're not going to leave us yet, you can spend tonight with us, moreover, I have things to do too, I can't spend time with you now."
"I can help."
"No, it's okay, call your friends, catch up, okay?"
"But, Mom..."
"No more buts, I have to go now, so I'll see you tonight okay?"
Before Hyunseung could argue anymore, his mother was out the door. Who should I call? Should I call Doojoon or Yoseob? No, I remember them saying they're going to spend today with each other. That goes for Dongwoon and Kikwang too. He sighed. What am I supposed to do?
Hyunseung grabbed his bag and having no specific place in mind, decided to go where his feet would guide him. He walked pass several shops, sight-seeing and taking in the many scenes of his hometown. Without realising it, he now stood in front of an ice-cream parlor. Instinctively, he walked into the shop and the place was rather crowded. Thankfully, no one recognises me. Pulling his cap down lower to cover his face.
Halfway into the shop, he noticed there was a guy wearing an orange beanie sitting in a far corner table. Something about that guy seems familiar, too familiar. Oh, it can't be him. But, it feels like him. Gathering up his courage, he tapped the guy on the shoulder, silently willing it's not him.
He turned, "Ah, you're finally here."
"What do you mean by that? And why are you here anyway?"
"I told you I'd be visiting some friends, remember? So, here I am."
"But... how did you know I'd walked into this shop? There's a chance I wouldn't have showed up."
"Well, yeah, but there's also a chance that you'd showed up and here you are."
Rendering Hyunseung completely speechless, he wished he hadn't tapped the guy in the orange beanie because now he wasn't sure whether he should stay and have his ice-cream or run out of the shop and not look back. He figured the former was a more appropriate course of action as he did not want to attract unwanted attention, moreover running away now is not going to do any good since they're going to meet up again tomorrow anyway, so he just sat back, unsure of what to say.
"So," Junhyung breaking the awkward silence, "did you mean what you said?"
Averting Junhyung's eyes, he slowly nodded.
"You're lying. I know you feel something for me too. I just don't get why you're avoiding it."
"I'm not avoiding anything."
"Yes, you are. I'm not an idiot. I can feel it too. You are in denial and lying to yourself if you say that you don't feel anything for me."
"I don't want to talk here, people might overhear us, let's take a walk." Grabbing his bag, Hyunseung headed for the exit, stealing as much time as possible to come up with a good enough reason to lie to Junhyung. How can he see it? Was I that obvious? What am I going to tell him?
Before long, Junhyung was walking alongside him, being very quiet. He must be waiting for my answer. Can I outright tell him? I should. I will.
"I wasn't lying when I said to not think about it. Frankly, I was telling it more to myself than to you. I've been in a few relationships and not one has ended well. I don't want us to be like that too. If things don't work out between the two of us, it'd be awkward for us and the rest and how are we possibly going to stay as a team anymore. I don't want to jeopardise that. It'd be unfair to you and the rest. We have all worked too hard to break up this good team." Hyunseung said, sounding on the verge of tears.
"What makes you think we won't make it?"
"I just do..." he trailed off.
Grabbing hold of Hyunseung by the shoulders, Junhyung turned him around, "We can try. You should give us a chance, give me a chance, give yourself a chance, we can make it."
Hearing Junhyung being so passionate in this, Hyunseung couldn't hold back his tears, "You don't understand, no one is happy with me, all of them said so themselves, I made them unhappy, neglected, and I will make you unhappy too, neglected and I don't want that."
"That's utter rubbish, whoever said that to you should get a good kicking from me. Now, look here," turning Hyunseung's face towards him, and wiping away the tears that was falling from that pretty face, Junhyung continued, "just by being next to you, I'm already very contented. But, loving you silently is not enough for me, I want to know that you love me too and we can make this work. There's no way you're going to make me unhappy, so get that nonsense out of your head. Instead, make me the happiest guy by telling me what I'm thinking is true."
Looking deep into Junhyung's eyes, "Are you sure we can make it?"
"I'm sure we can make it."
"Well, what you're thinking is true." Hyunseung said, smiling.
"And what might that be?" Junhyung teased.
"That I love you and probably always have since the moment I laid eyes on you."
Junhyung's smiled, "I love you too." before pulling Hyunseung in for a deep kiss.
~~~
"Ah, hyung, you're back. Had a great time?" Dongwoon asked with a smiling Kikwang by his side.
"Sure did. Yoseob and I spend the entire yesterday together, I take it you two had a great time as well."
Dongwoon and Kikwang both nodded. "So, what are we going to do with Hyunseung and Junhyung-hyung?"
"Let's talk about it when we're back inside our dorm."
All 4 of them started carrying their bags into the elevator and headed up towards their dorm.
"How are we going to bring them together?" Yoseob asked while unlocking the front door. When he opened it, all 4 were rooted to the ground, jaws dropped as they looked in astonishment at the two cuddled up on the sofa.
Junhyung asked, "So, who did you want to bring together?"
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Author's note: Didn't quite turned out the way I had expected it to. I'm sorry I took some time on this. *even then, this turned out bad* I have no idea how to write JunSeung. *sigh* I hope you like it anyway. (^_^)
Comments are much loved and appreciated. ♥