Jumper

[kidoairaku]

Wow, I can't believe it's been nearly 10 years since this song came out. Junior high. *-* So long ago, but it doesn't really feel that way. I feel like all my schooling after elementary school went by really quickly. It felt long while I was in it, but that was half my life right there. Hmm. Back to the point. I caught myself singing the lyrics to this song today, and wanted to post it.

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I remember just listening to this on the radio, and not so much remembering the actual music video for some reason. Third Eye Blind was one of the bands I liked at the time (I still do). Back then, there seemed to be more guitar strumming, huh?

Anyway, this song didn't really hit home until HS when we had to attend an assembly on suicide in 10th grade(?)...I forget. It was put on by the peer counselors (I forget their official name, but it was a class). They didn't show the music video, but they had the lyrics scrolling on a projector screen in Valhalla (yea, vikings...what was that other themed room called again? used to be rm104...), while the song was playing. After having my mind on suicide after the presentation, I totally cried during the song (not blubbering, but I needed tissues and only had my sleeves)...cuz every line is meaningful.


I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand

The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight
You're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something's wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand

Well he's on the table and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they're doing here

And your friends have left you
You've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyones got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand

I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
Understand
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Can you put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
And I would understand

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand

I wonder...did I spend too much of my youth thinking no one would understand, when in fact...everyone knew exactly? Not just peers, per se...but ppl in general. The gamut of emotions only runs so wide. Although the severity depends on the individual's situation, I think we all know what it is to suffer in ourselves. Do we isolate ourselves to intensify the pain? To justify our dissatisfaction w/ whatever it is? Who knows?...

I just really like this song. I wonder if I could ever be a strong enough to say this to a friend/somebody I know who needs it. I'd like to be able to, but I know I'm weak.

p.s. Using a new icon. Look! Yuuki touching his face. And he looks slightly normal-colored, albeit a bit orange.

[edit]: ...and since when was there an "Adult Content" drop-down list when posting entries on LJ? o___O

...and I'm in love w/ the smell of Anna Sui nail polish. I keep sniffing my nails. It's so addicting. *-* They're all the same smell, but some colors are better than others.