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I'm rather proud of myself today. In an attempt to regain that spark of creativity lost long ago, I have been making myself write again. It takes a lot more effort than it used in years past. But perhaps that will make me appreciate any small success that much more. So today I chewed over and reworked and edited.. and finally had something to post on my deviant art page (http://kidlet.deviantart.com/) for the first time in so long. I haven't created anything actually new since 2004. Although a couple times a year I would put up something old just to keep my hand in. So this journal entry is just to say "hooray for me!" Perhaps by looking back to the things that I valued in the past, I can pull pieces of it into the future with me. I know that some parts of who I was cannot be recovered from what the doctors did to me, but that doesn't mean I can't make the person I am today good as well. There is nothing useful to be gained from sitting in self pity. So instead I wish myself luck and dive in to work at it.