May 21, 2005 01:22
its a 12 day count down till we fly to New York now. and a holiday away from the hassle of work is exactly what i need right now. im really not happy with my job at the moment but cant afford to just give it up. its stupidly long hours and not the grestest of pay, its not bad like just not great.
i still have no plans at this minute when it comes to a new girlfriend. i would be fibbing if i was too say that certain people did not interest me. but i have the feeling that they just may not want to know me in that way. its the same old story. you find someone, you get along like gosh, then think they may have the slightest of feelings for you but haha shame on you. but as the old saying goes you will never find something if your looking for it. some times its nice to be alone, to be free from the hassle of fighting and being upset, but on the other hand i get those nights when u just want someone to be with u, too hang out, too stay up late, to cuddle and fall asleep with you, to wake up next too in the morning. for someone to want you to be close to them. its times like these when you forget who you are. i think id like to live in my dreams for a while. hehe if only.
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you'll never loved me
Don't hold your breath because you’ll only make things worse!