so wot now.......
the end of the line....
so this is the part when everyone reflects on the year gone by.
for me 2004 has been full of mixed emotions.
the times ive spent doing the things ive done this year i will never forget. Ive let myself down in so many ways i deserve to feel like this right now. the year has ended with me face down, drowning in my own self pitty. ive only added to my pain this year. if it wasnt for my stupidity then who knows i may not have been feeling like this and everything would still be a'ok. but its not and im not and i only have myself to blame.
as we see in the new year i will be getting ready to take a giant leap in age from a teenager into my early 20's. time for me to start paying my way at home. ive lived here too long now without helping out, so i think its time dont you.
i have been to loads of shows this year, alot i wouldnt normally attend but it was still my face in the crowd. alot of shows ive missed too that im really gutted about. always the next time i hope.
i got done for speeding and for having my fog lights on, ON A FOGGY night, fuck u fuzz. i plan on going to Anfield this year. and going away for a week or 2 in the summer. i plan on getting drunk more often than i do and being a crazy lad. i have a new found love for burger king. and for dressing up. i bought 2 of the best games ever. spider man 2 and GTA San Andreas. wot a play folks wot a play. some killer albums been out this year, plus i have Snatch, Lock stock and now fight club to add to my movie collection. 3 of the best.
ive had to experience first hand my first funeral of someone close to me. it was a horrible event and one that still plays on my mind alot. me and my mum along with my 2 sisters visited the grave on christmas day. it just didnt feel right this year. christmas will never be the same.
i wish i could jump back a few months and do things differently. but i cant and nothing i do now is ever good enough for you. the slighest thing i say makes u want to slice my face open with a rusty old blade. im fighting a losing batle. who would have thought we would have ended up this way? but it was only a matter of time before you saw the light. now im left in the dark without a match.
Yes the events of this year have been the best at times, but it has ended at such a level that not even empty can describe the way things are. but at the end of the day i have 2 people who i would die for, friends are the missing link to my life. mr lee and miss lou, no one will ever take them away from me. FACT!
in the new year i will continue to wear my heart on my sleve, i will continue to lack serious spirit and continue to miss the ones i truely love. ive learnt from my mistake and now know that love is a slow suicide.
for now ill let you finsih reading this pile of wank im typing for you guys.
ill just sit back and watch the world pass me by. ill shed a tear just because i can.
call me wot you like, say wot ever u can think of to hurt me. i couldnt be hurt anymore..
your still oh so close to me but yet i can see you in the distance...
happy new year kids x
ive gone from this:
to this in just over a year.
so this is the part when everyone reflects on the year gone by.
for me 2004 has been full of mixed emotions.
the times ive spent doing the things ive done this year i will never forget. Ive let myself down in so many ways i deserve to feel like this right now. the year has ended with me face down, drowning in my own self pitty. ive only added to my pain this year. if it wasnt for my stupidity then who knows i may not have been feeling like this and everything would still be a'ok. but its not and im not and i only have myself to blame.
as we see in the new year i will be getting ready to take a giant leap in age from a teenager into my early 20's. time for me to start paying my way at home. ive lived here too long now without helping out, so i think its time dont you.
i have been to loads of shows this year, alot i wouldnt normally attend but it was still my face in the crowd. alot of shows ive missed too that im really gutted about. always the next time i hope.
i got done for speeding and for having my fog lights on, ON A FOGGY night, fuck u fuzz. i plan on going to Anfield this year. and going away for a week or 2 in the summer. i plan on getting drunk more often than i do and being a crazy lad. i have a new found love for burger king. and for dressing up. i bought 2 of the best games ever. spider man 2 and GTA San Andreas. wot a play folks wot a play. some killer albums been out this year, plus i have Snatch, Lock stock and now fight club to add to my movie collection. 3 of the best.
ive had to experience first hand my first funeral of someone close to me. it was a horrible event and one that still plays on my mind alot. me and my mum along with my 2 sisters visited the grave on christmas day. it just didnt feel right this year. christmas will never be the same.
i wish i could jump back a few months and do things differently. but i cant and nothing i do now is ever good enough for you. the slighest thing i say makes u want to slice my face open with a rusty old blade. im fighting a losing batle. who would have thought we would have ended up this way? but it was only a matter of time before you saw the light. now im left in the dark without a match.
Yes the events of this year have been the best at times, but it has ended at such a level that not even empty can describe the way things are. but at the end of the day i have 2 people who i would die for, friends are the missing link to my life. mr lee and miss lou, no one will ever take them away from me. FACT!
in the new year i will continue to wear my heart on my sleve, i will continue to lack serious spirit and continue to miss the ones i truely love. ive learnt from my mistake and now know that love is a slow suicide.
for now ill let you finsih reading this pile of wank im typing for you guys.
ill just sit back and watch the world pass me by. ill shed a tear just because i can.
call me wot you like, say wot ever u can think of to hurt me. i couldnt be hurt anymore..
your still oh so close to me but yet i can see you in the distance...
happy new year kids x
ive gone from this:
to this in just over a year.