Feelings
So I haven't actually written in this journal in a long time, so here I go... Its 5:15am and most of you know I DJ here in Ausitn Tuesday night. Well it was a bad one for me since it wasn't as crazy as I wanted it to be. It usually is pretty damn good, but for some reason I couldn't bare the fact of a bad Tuesday night. I hate having a bad night, it makes me so much more motivated to make things better next week. I mean for a Tuesday anywhere it was still good, I just got spoiled with the fact that it has been so good. Plus I always want the intensity to be so much higher than is possible unless its SXSW or ACL time here in Austin. So maybe I should lower my expectations or not drink myself silly to a point where I'm way more intense then everyone else was. My buddies at Uchi sauced me up with Tequilla shots and other assortments of shots along with a few other drinks I crushed in a few minutes. I get super crazy when I drink Tequilla, I always end up going balls to the wall. I get angry and would probably fight, eventhough I never want to fight. Now its past 5am and I can't sleep because im coming down and feeling depress. I hate it. I just want to fall asleep, I want to restart myself tommorow and forget about yesterday. Geez I hate drinking sometimes, Im glad I only drink twice a week for the most part.
moving on...
I have been in houston the past two weekends.. good and bad times.
For the most part it was ok, I had a great time seeing my brother and Dad for fathers day. My brother Michael bought us all really really great seats for the game, my father was definately so happy. It means so much for me to hang out with my dad now, hes been so sick the last year or so. I just can't imagine life without him.
The Astros ended up losing but it was still just wonderful to be out with my brother and father. Doing something we have always enjoy doing together.
I tried to go out in houston last weekend it was pretty damn horrible, definately hit or miss there on weekends. This past Saturday was great, I was at MSTRKRFT at A38. The Boys and Girls Club crew definately made me feel at home. Even though I didn't really know anyone there, they made it an effort to introduce me to everyone.
CHROMEO is next weeken but I am so broke now from two weekends in a row in Houston. So I might have to cancell that trip after all. Gas killed me 160$ on gas alone for two weekends. On top of that eating out and drinking out in Houston killed my bank account.
Other news-
I moved into a new house off of 51 street with Ellison, Megan, and Kerry is moving in this week. Its a pretty sweet house, to bad my roomates are lame-o's ;).
I need a vacation!
Tom Delay moved out of Sugarland to Vermont? smooth move to keep the Rep. Seat.
My hair is the longest it has ever been in my life.
Im ready for Fall.
Im ready for this mood im in right now to leave. I literally feel myself wanting to Die so I don't have to feel this way. I just have to get through a few more hours and then im home free. I like home im basically talking to myself right now and hear myself speaking in my head as I type this. Its kinda weird and depressing. I feel like Jim Carey in Eternal Sunshine, that feeling of fustration, being lost and trying to find a solution.
I have a new crush, its pretty cool.
Ok time to go, wish me luck with this odd night im having.
moving on...
I have been in houston the past two weekends.. good and bad times.
For the most part it was ok, I had a great time seeing my brother and Dad for fathers day. My brother Michael bought us all really really great seats for the game, my father was definately so happy. It means so much for me to hang out with my dad now, hes been so sick the last year or so. I just can't imagine life without him.
The Astros ended up losing but it was still just wonderful to be out with my brother and father. Doing something we have always enjoy doing together.
I tried to go out in houston last weekend it was pretty damn horrible, definately hit or miss there on weekends. This past Saturday was great, I was at MSTRKRFT at A38. The Boys and Girls Club crew definately made me feel at home. Even though I didn't really know anyone there, they made it an effort to introduce me to everyone.
CHROMEO is next weeken but I am so broke now from two weekends in a row in Houston. So I might have to cancell that trip after all. Gas killed me 160$ on gas alone for two weekends. On top of that eating out and drinking out in Houston killed my bank account.
Other news-
I moved into a new house off of 51 street with Ellison, Megan, and Kerry is moving in this week. Its a pretty sweet house, to bad my roomates are lame-o's ;).
I need a vacation!
Tom Delay moved out of Sugarland to Vermont? smooth move to keep the Rep. Seat.
My hair is the longest it has ever been in my life.
Im ready for Fall.
Im ready for this mood im in right now to leave. I literally feel myself wanting to Die so I don't have to feel this way. I just have to get through a few more hours and then im home free. I like home im basically talking to myself right now and hear myself speaking in my head as I type this. Its kinda weird and depressing. I feel like Jim Carey in Eternal Sunshine, that feeling of fustration, being lost and trying to find a solution.
I have a new crush, its pretty cool.
Ok time to go, wish me luck with this odd night im having.