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It's been a while huh? I guess I'm not one to write much anymore. It just always seems to be the same old repetitive life, with a few extra kicks here and there.
Most of my time is still monopolized by work. The little time I have to myself is now spent on my new Wii that I just bought on Tuesday. Definately worth it. I can barely put it down and when I'm not around my sister can't put it down. Jeez, if I'm not careful my mom and Matt won't be able to put it down and once I get more controllers I can guarantee my friends will either. It's gonna be a time leech of a system, but I love it anyway.
Work is going a little better now. I seem to have redeemed myself back from where I was originaly and have somemore respect from my managers and supervisors again. I'm the only full-timer for now though; no idea what's going on with the other one so there's about 10x more responsibility back on my head again...gah!
Other than that, all I can think about is past things and trying to make my way forward. I miss my Grandfather so much still and Grandma just still can't get over the fact that he's gone. every time I talk to her she's always talking about him and it makes me miss him even worse. Soon I plan on going to his grave and visiting him there. It'll be very depressing, but I'm sure wherever he is he will like the visit.
Other than that, there are just old memories that always resurface about my past love life. Sometimes I wonder how some people can just move on completely from situations like that without having any kind of inklings about them for many times to come...It probably doesn't help that most of the stuff I own in some way reminds me of one of my ex's, but I guess that's to be expected. After another lonely new years, I kinda long for that feeling again...and to be honest I don't care who reads this or what they think.
I guess that's just part of what I've learned being like this. I've found more of a sense of independance. I'm not at anyone's mercy anymore, I am who I am. It's very liberating to be like that. Go out when I want, do what I want, buy what I want and not get any crap about it whatsoever. I've gotten more self-confident...but I still can't approach a girl >.<
Got some car repairs done...when my car died...again...
cost me $1000...which I'm still in debt to my Mom about 800 of that. It's a good experience though because it's helping me get better with saving money. Soon I should be able to accumulate some good money and be able to go out into the world on my own...once I get my own car insurance of course (mom's rule).
Going to PA again today. I can't wait, its always a great time down there. It's a welcome break as well. It comes at a good time since Marc can't drive and Doug hasn't been there for like 6 months. The only downside is that I'm driving...so hopefully my car will make it....It better make it for having $1000 worth or repairs done....
Well, that's all I got. Lets see what life throws at me next.
Most of my time is still monopolized by work. The little time I have to myself is now spent on my new Wii that I just bought on Tuesday. Definately worth it. I can barely put it down and when I'm not around my sister can't put it down. Jeez, if I'm not careful my mom and Matt won't be able to put it down and once I get more controllers I can guarantee my friends will either. It's gonna be a time leech of a system, but I love it anyway.
Work is going a little better now. I seem to have redeemed myself back from where I was originaly and have somemore respect from my managers and supervisors again. I'm the only full-timer for now though; no idea what's going on with the other one so there's about 10x more responsibility back on my head again...gah!
Other than that, all I can think about is past things and trying to make my way forward. I miss my Grandfather so much still and Grandma just still can't get over the fact that he's gone. every time I talk to her she's always talking about him and it makes me miss him even worse. Soon I plan on going to his grave and visiting him there. It'll be very depressing, but I'm sure wherever he is he will like the visit.
Other than that, there are just old memories that always resurface about my past love life. Sometimes I wonder how some people can just move on completely from situations like that without having any kind of inklings about them for many times to come...It probably doesn't help that most of the stuff I own in some way reminds me of one of my ex's, but I guess that's to be expected. After another lonely new years, I kinda long for that feeling again...and to be honest I don't care who reads this or what they think.
I guess that's just part of what I've learned being like this. I've found more of a sense of independance. I'm not at anyone's mercy anymore, I am who I am. It's very liberating to be like that. Go out when I want, do what I want, buy what I want and not get any crap about it whatsoever. I've gotten more self-confident...but I still can't approach a girl >.<
Got some car repairs done...when my car died...again...
cost me $1000...which I'm still in debt to my Mom about 800 of that. It's a good experience though because it's helping me get better with saving money. Soon I should be able to accumulate some good money and be able to go out into the world on my own...once I get my own car insurance of course (mom's rule).
Going to PA again today. I can't wait, its always a great time down there. It's a welcome break as well. It comes at a good time since Marc can't drive and Doug hasn't been there for like 6 months. The only downside is that I'm driving...so hopefully my car will make it....It better make it for having $1000 worth or repairs done....
Well, that's all I got. Lets see what life throws at me next.