Life
in the last few days i have heard several things over and over again. You have to be your self and do things for your self as opposed to putting some much effort into this Light. (i would like to note that im not refering to My Light in person simply because it makes it easier for me to talk about)
there was a story writen once or maybe it was a poem, that talked about the world as a storm or an ocean and placed me as a rock in it. the world and most notabley My Light zipped around me while i sat there content to let it all go by as it would. that story is part of the reason im hear now. Not because i was trying to make a good impression but because is showed me that i was missing out on so much due to a false sense of contentment and a lot of fears. over the last few years i have done alot of things in persuit of My Light but i have made sure that all of them were also building a life that i am happy with. i have a job that i love, i have plans to got to school and to one day be a master chef, i have a car and half a license (hope to finish that of this week some time), and waether other people see it or not i have grown up a lot. yes i am and always will be a big kid, but in many ways im a lot diffrent from the person that moved up here
if i can never reach My Light im not sure what im going to do, i honestly don't even know where to begin with that and i pray every night that i never have to find out.(yes, i pray, jsut cause i don't understand why 50 diffrent groups of people can have 50 diffrent "right ways" dosn't mean i don't believe in god, thats for a diffrent post thought), but i do know that the life i have built along the way is exactly as i want it or is being change to meet what i want and if nuthing else i stil have that.
there was a story writen once or maybe it was a poem, that talked about the world as a storm or an ocean and placed me as a rock in it. the world and most notabley My Light zipped around me while i sat there content to let it all go by as it would. that story is part of the reason im hear now. Not because i was trying to make a good impression but because is showed me that i was missing out on so much due to a false sense of contentment and a lot of fears. over the last few years i have done alot of things in persuit of My Light but i have made sure that all of them were also building a life that i am happy with. i have a job that i love, i have plans to got to school and to one day be a master chef, i have a car and half a license (hope to finish that of this week some time), and waether other people see it or not i have grown up a lot. yes i am and always will be a big kid, but in many ways im a lot diffrent from the person that moved up here
if i can never reach My Light im not sure what im going to do, i honestly don't even know where to begin with that and i pray every night that i never have to find out.(yes, i pray, jsut cause i don't understand why 50 diffrent groups of people can have 50 diffrent "right ways" dosn't mean i don't believe in god, thats for a diffrent post thought), but i do know that the life i have built along the way is exactly as i want it or is being change to meet what i want and if nuthing else i stil have that.