End of examz...n year 2 of med school
Last Sat, the 16th of May 2009, marked the end of my examz, as well as my 2nd yr od med school. A time for veneration, as i'm 40% to bein called a doctor...theoretically. For me, it's a time for relief n joy as finally, i'm free of lectures, assignments, tutorials, examz n other wat nots, n be able to enjoy a 3 MONTH break! Whee!! =D
I'm not really optimistic on the outcome of my exam, but i do hope tht i'll be able to survive. I know i've said this many times, but i think it's abt time i seriously look into a way to realise it; i need a new studyin strategy. The old last-minute-burn-the-oil-&-books approach is gettin a lil defunct, esp as u progress further into med school, where the modules get alot more complicated and alot more backreading n additional reading are required. No better time than the upcoming 3 mths break to plan my strategem. Though wat exactly it should entail, i'm not sure. Ideas anyone? =)
I must say tht 2nd year of med school has been received with mixed reviews by me. Challenging, which i liked, but at the same time...overly n unnecessarily strenous, which i didn't like so much. Isn't so much the modules were difficult. Just tht the arrangement of the lectures n other activities could've been better suited. They hve 5 days. They should work around tht rather than give us one day to stare at the wall. Or pack all 4 days fully enough so tht we can enjoy the weekend. Haih. Weird. Still, as i progress, i learn more n more abt this course of mine, n sorta get a feel for wat issit i intent to specialise on when i work later on. I've also learnt tht, unlike the portrayals in Grey's and ER, a doctor's job can also be pretty mundane. I mean, ok...wat are the chances tht a patient would present with an advanced & severe disease tht is basically almost untreatable out of a sample of 100 ppl? U'd be lucky if there's even 1. Half the time, patients come to u wif the usual cases of fever, hypertension, stress, flu, bla bla bla. Makes sense rite? If every 1 in 100 would be affected with a highly advanced & severe disease tht's almost non-treatable, the hospitals would be packed full, seein tht msia has a population of roughly 27-28 mil.
My 2nd yr in general, was a disappointment to myself. It started off well enough...a performace analysis would show a steep rise, indicative of good participation, huge effort, n well balanced lifestyle. But after a few mths, a gradual decline began, leading finally to a slump. Of the sports i joined at the beginnin of the year, i was not active in any, missing many practices. I fared better in societies section, with a highly active participation in PMCSA, but tht's abt it. In the other societies, i was almost non-existent. My extra courses were endavoured with great enthusiasm in the first semester...but the response was tepid in the 2nd sem. Which was bad. It is pretty difficult to sustain the drive to get something done by pure internal factors without external factors assisting. Maslow made alot of sense when he developed his lvls of needs pyramid by placing physical, safety n social needs at the bottom of the pyramid, indicating their importance n essence to achieve the higher lvl needs such as esteem n self-actualisation. Though it doesn't always work tht way, there is some truth to his motivation theory.
I find tht i need to focus my energy, to concentrate them on a few select undertakings as i progress higher n higher in education...as well as life. Dispersing the energy seems to weaken me on all fronts, giving me neither strength nor advantage but multiple failures or half-baked successes. A can of worms...n a very potent one at tht b'cos if i'm not careful, i may be the cause of the very thing i seek to avoid; failure. It is something i need to reflect on during these coming 3 mths. I need to define my life's path n interests, to separate fiction from reality, to define fact from fantasy. It's ok to dream, n fantasize, but to live life tht way isn't really living. Darth Vader is cool onscreen...n tht's the only place he's gonna stay cool. No way on earth anyone could survive bein burned alive near lava...much less choke someone thru holocam communication after tht. Likewise with everything else. When i'm a millionaire...i might indulge in high-living as per a Bruce Wayne-ish lifestyle, but no way i'm jumping of rooftops in a black cape n a grapple gun.
It. Just. Doesn't. Work. That. Way. In. Reality.
Gotta lotta work cut out for me as u can see, despite bein on hols =).
I'm not really optimistic on the outcome of my exam, but i do hope tht i'll be able to survive. I know i've said this many times, but i think it's abt time i seriously look into a way to realise it; i need a new studyin strategy. The old last-minute-burn-the-oil-&-books approach is gettin a lil defunct, esp as u progress further into med school, where the modules get alot more complicated and alot more backreading n additional reading are required. No better time than the upcoming 3 mths break to plan my strategem. Though wat exactly it should entail, i'm not sure. Ideas anyone? =)
I must say tht 2nd year of med school has been received with mixed reviews by me. Challenging, which i liked, but at the same time...overly n unnecessarily strenous, which i didn't like so much. Isn't so much the modules were difficult. Just tht the arrangement of the lectures n other activities could've been better suited. They hve 5 days. They should work around tht rather than give us one day to stare at the wall. Or pack all 4 days fully enough so tht we can enjoy the weekend. Haih. Weird. Still, as i progress, i learn more n more abt this course of mine, n sorta get a feel for wat issit i intent to specialise on when i work later on. I've also learnt tht, unlike the portrayals in Grey's and ER, a doctor's job can also be pretty mundane. I mean, ok...wat are the chances tht a patient would present with an advanced & severe disease tht is basically almost untreatable out of a sample of 100 ppl? U'd be lucky if there's even 1. Half the time, patients come to u wif the usual cases of fever, hypertension, stress, flu, bla bla bla. Makes sense rite? If every 1 in 100 would be affected with a highly advanced & severe disease tht's almost non-treatable, the hospitals would be packed full, seein tht msia has a population of roughly 27-28 mil.
My 2nd yr in general, was a disappointment to myself. It started off well enough...a performace analysis would show a steep rise, indicative of good participation, huge effort, n well balanced lifestyle. But after a few mths, a gradual decline began, leading finally to a slump. Of the sports i joined at the beginnin of the year, i was not active in any, missing many practices. I fared better in societies section, with a highly active participation in PMCSA, but tht's abt it. In the other societies, i was almost non-existent. My extra courses were endavoured with great enthusiasm in the first semester...but the response was tepid in the 2nd sem. Which was bad. It is pretty difficult to sustain the drive to get something done by pure internal factors without external factors assisting. Maslow made alot of sense when he developed his lvls of needs pyramid by placing physical, safety n social needs at the bottom of the pyramid, indicating their importance n essence to achieve the higher lvl needs such as esteem n self-actualisation. Though it doesn't always work tht way, there is some truth to his motivation theory.
I find tht i need to focus my energy, to concentrate them on a few select undertakings as i progress higher n higher in education...as well as life. Dispersing the energy seems to weaken me on all fronts, giving me neither strength nor advantage but multiple failures or half-baked successes. A can of worms...n a very potent one at tht b'cos if i'm not careful, i may be the cause of the very thing i seek to avoid; failure. It is something i need to reflect on during these coming 3 mths. I need to define my life's path n interests, to separate fiction from reality, to define fact from fantasy. It's ok to dream, n fantasize, but to live life tht way isn't really living. Darth Vader is cool onscreen...n tht's the only place he's gonna stay cool. No way on earth anyone could survive bein burned alive near lava...much less choke someone thru holocam communication after tht. Likewise with everything else. When i'm a millionaire...i might indulge in high-living as per a Bruce Wayne-ish lifestyle, but no way i'm jumping of rooftops in a black cape n a grapple gun.
It. Just. Doesn't. Work. That. Way. In. Reality.
Gotta lotta work cut out for me as u can see, despite bein on hols =).