Stuck in a hard decision. =/
So yeah..lately it's been chaos trying to figure out wether or not I am working this fall semester comming up in about 2 months. O_o
I have SO many pro's and con's about working or not working and here we go:
5 classes with no job:
*PROS*
1. no work = more free weekends
2. graduation date set for Fall of 08.
3. the possiblity of visiting my family for the holidays is greater
4. I can focus more on school and not worry about work.
5. possible earlier engagment??
6. keep the held wedding date for 2009
7. I'll gain more experaince with the graphics classes faster
8. I'll save more money in the long run with school.
*CONS*
1. No money will be comming into my account = tight spending.
2. No tai chi on thursday nights..thats my all day'er
3. I wont make the 1 year point for work... =\
4. I will loose my ability to get insurance with work even though I'm still on my dads
5. I will have ALOT of projects to do for school and alot of reading.
6. Holiday spending might be small.
7. only 6 months to plan a wedding in FL
Then...we have.
4 Classes with M-W-F-SAT work sched..18hrs of work a week.
*PROS*
1. Still making money
2. One year stat at work
3. I CAN have future insurance/benifits with work if I ever wanted them
4. lightens my school sched
5. I'll be higher on the seniority list for vacations at work
6. It would help Eric a little to pay off his debts, though I don't know just how much.
7. We can save up for the wedding a little longer
*CONS*
1. FULL work and school sched. I'll split ALL my work/school/and homework time up for the most part.
2. I will graduate 6 months later..May of 2009
3. I will have NO friday and saturdays off. =\
4. I will have job meetings and testings still to complete. =\
5. No possible trips to FL for holidays
6. Engagment will be put off longer..past our 5 year dating point [I'm guessing, IDK what Erics going to do to be honest anymore..] and when we got married would be later in 2010.
THEN..
I had the thought of. "I'm going to school for graphic design to either become a Digital artist for a gaming company or a photographer."
Now here is the reality. Both of our lives literarly [sp] revolve around taekwondo. EVERYTHING. The NEAREST possible work environment that involves that sort of stuff I like is in DEEP houston, Dallas, and Austin. No where do I see Eric moving us for me to do that because of tkd, because there isn't a tkd school near thos citys. That leaves the photography, which we are already doing with for tkd. LOL. Who'da thunk it?
I honestly just wanna do photography like my brother. I crave to have his job so bad. We are already good, just gotta get better. I also like that job because if I were to get pregnant, and then have the baby, I can still work my hours around the baby[ies] and still make an income. If we were married...hell I'd elope if we could..if he'd let us. I don't really care for a huge wedding to be honest...insurance and health coverage wouldn't be so darn difficult. Oh well.. =/
Right now I think I've stressed over this so intensly that it's causing me to have headachs. I have till I think next week to decied what I'm doing with my schedule so I guess I'll post that mess later. I want to have a SMALL job for the fall if possible but I'm not sure where I'll find that.
I REALLY desire progression between Eric and I. We're doing great but I feel like we are at a stand still point and waiting for me to graduate is going to keep us there till I'm done. I want to buy a hosue but I have to work somewhere for a year + to achieve rights for ownership with Eric. Also, money.
I don't mind living in the apartment though, I'd like to get a larger one. I wouldn't mind renting a house either. someplace with PRIVATE parking. I wanna be engaged so badly too. One that is extened. I understand the marriage will have to come after school due to expences. I don't mind that. I just wish he wouldn't make that wait last so long. I wish he didn't have all the expences to pay off, too. But a saying I'm starting to attach myself too is..life wouldn't throw anything at you, that you couldn't handle, and that it gives you challanges for you to over come and get through to make you stonger. Whatever happens, happens. Not everybody will like them, but not everybody will hate them either.
It sometimes blows over my head that I'm still 19. [I'm mentally older I swear, but in a 19 yr olds body.] I want to make this all work out so it beneifits eric and i for the future.
RAWR. time to get back to work.
I have SO many pro's and con's about working or not working and here we go:
5 classes with no job:
*PROS*
1. no work = more free weekends
2. graduation date set for Fall of 08.
3. the possiblity of visiting my family for the holidays is greater
4. I can focus more on school and not worry about work.
5. possible earlier engagment??
6. keep the held wedding date for 2009
7. I'll gain more experaince with the graphics classes faster
8. I'll save more money in the long run with school.
*CONS*
1. No money will be comming into my account = tight spending.
2. No tai chi on thursday nights..thats my all day'er
3. I wont make the 1 year point for work... =\
4. I will loose my ability to get insurance with work even though I'm still on my dads
5. I will have ALOT of projects to do for school and alot of reading.
6. Holiday spending might be small.
7. only 6 months to plan a wedding in FL
Then...we have.
4 Classes with M-W-F-SAT work sched..18hrs of work a week.
*PROS*
1. Still making money
2. One year stat at work
3. I CAN have future insurance/benifits with work if I ever wanted them
4. lightens my school sched
5. I'll be higher on the seniority list for vacations at work
6. It would help Eric a little to pay off his debts, though I don't know just how much.
7. We can save up for the wedding a little longer
*CONS*
1. FULL work and school sched. I'll split ALL my work/school/and homework time up for the most part.
2. I will graduate 6 months later..May of 2009
3. I will have NO friday and saturdays off. =\
4. I will have job meetings and testings still to complete. =\
5. No possible trips to FL for holidays
6. Engagment will be put off longer..past our 5 year dating point [I'm guessing, IDK what Erics going to do to be honest anymore..] and when we got married would be later in 2010.
THEN..
I had the thought of. "I'm going to school for graphic design to either become a Digital artist for a gaming company or a photographer."
Now here is the reality. Both of our lives literarly [sp] revolve around taekwondo. EVERYTHING. The NEAREST possible work environment that involves that sort of stuff I like is in DEEP houston, Dallas, and Austin. No where do I see Eric moving us for me to do that because of tkd, because there isn't a tkd school near thos citys. That leaves the photography, which we are already doing with for tkd. LOL. Who'da thunk it?
I honestly just wanna do photography like my brother. I crave to have his job so bad. We are already good, just gotta get better. I also like that job because if I were to get pregnant, and then have the baby, I can still work my hours around the baby[ies] and still make an income. If we were married...hell I'd elope if we could..if he'd let us. I don't really care for a huge wedding to be honest...insurance and health coverage wouldn't be so darn difficult. Oh well.. =/
Right now I think I've stressed over this so intensly that it's causing me to have headachs. I have till I think next week to decied what I'm doing with my schedule so I guess I'll post that mess later. I want to have a SMALL job for the fall if possible but I'm not sure where I'll find that.
I REALLY desire progression between Eric and I. We're doing great but I feel like we are at a stand still point and waiting for me to graduate is going to keep us there till I'm done. I want to buy a hosue but I have to work somewhere for a year + to achieve rights for ownership with Eric. Also, money.
I don't mind living in the apartment though, I'd like to get a larger one. I wouldn't mind renting a house either. someplace with PRIVATE parking. I wanna be engaged so badly too. One that is extened. I understand the marriage will have to come after school due to expences. I don't mind that. I just wish he wouldn't make that wait last so long. I wish he didn't have all the expences to pay off, too. But a saying I'm starting to attach myself too is..life wouldn't throw anything at you, that you couldn't handle, and that it gives you challanges for you to over come and get through to make you stonger. Whatever happens, happens. Not everybody will like them, but not everybody will hate them either.
It sometimes blows over my head that I'm still 19. [I'm mentally older I swear, but in a 19 yr olds body.] I want to make this all work out so it beneifits eric and i for the future.
RAWR. time to get back to work.