Never knew that love did this...you've done something to my mind, and I can't control it.

[kickinkeke]

Well here you have it. At one point you think that it is all figured out when all the sudden, life throws you a curve ball. All I can ask myself is what the fuck? I'm hurting inside once again and don't really know what to do about it. Is it possible to love two loves? Not totally - for sure. True love deserves undivided attention. I want so badly to give myself to somebody that is willing to do the same but it just isn't working out and never has. Will it ever??? I can only hope for now I suppose and just try and make things work. But its not working, working, working. I have hit a bump in the road but will go on to my final destination - you. you. YOU. Fuck, this isn't making any sense is it. Is it?

I'm a great lover. I want to give love. I want to recieve love.

I pray for the day when this will all make sense. One day...some day.

My heart hurts as is sobs tears of sangre sanctu. Hurry, I'm wasting away without you...to nothingness.