this journal is a rarity

[kickinchicken]

a gem, if you will. a real............. gem.

ugh. i'm losing my perspicacity. is that spelled correctly?

oy

i just wonder sometimes

priorities.

i 'm really not one of them.

hm.

& these little things do bother me. like ... the pictures.
&......

all of these othere things i don't have the balls to say

& here i am typing at nearly midnight, while 3 of my soon to be relatives sleep not 6 feet away from me

ugh i feel so underhanded when i type into this
as if i'm being dishonest because
it's said here & not out in the open

the notebooks
the scrap pieces of paper found during rummages
through old school papers
& articles,
the paper i save for this very occasion
are being wasted.
they are hidden
in a filing cabinet
in the spare oom
in which Kenley.......... Kenley is sleeping.

peacefully.

it's not right the way i feel sometimes.

tears now.
sleep later.