a bad sign
updates on consecutive days, folks. yes, this is a bad sign.
what it means is that i just tried to practice and felt like shit and couldn't focus and am mad because of how much i suck and too tired to do the things i know i need to do to fix it. god damn. gonna have to try again tomorrow, i guess. going to rehearse with that combo in a little bit, so maybe that will cheer me up some. or maybe not.
counting down the days until i'm back in portland. i just want to be there right now, with my family.
i didn't want granddad's death to affect me this much. it just snapped me into this frozen cycle of shittiness. i hope that my trip to portland can cleanse that.
okay enough feeling sorry for myself, i try to keep that to an absolute minimum.
one thing my mom mentioned to me on the phone the other day is that i get to see the kitties again! i can't wait. they are probably all grown up and medium-sized by now but still i bet they're pretty cute. okay that's how i'm going to leave things, thinking about the kitties. alright have a good weekend folks, and if you're in the amherst/northampton area check out the shark spaceship (with new trombonist jared johnson) at the pearl street theater on saturday.
what it means is that i just tried to practice and felt like shit and couldn't focus and am mad because of how much i suck and too tired to do the things i know i need to do to fix it. god damn. gonna have to try again tomorrow, i guess. going to rehearse with that combo in a little bit, so maybe that will cheer me up some. or maybe not.
counting down the days until i'm back in portland. i just want to be there right now, with my family.
i didn't want granddad's death to affect me this much. it just snapped me into this frozen cycle of shittiness. i hope that my trip to portland can cleanse that.
okay enough feeling sorry for myself, i try to keep that to an absolute minimum.
one thing my mom mentioned to me on the phone the other day is that i get to see the kitties again! i can't wait. they are probably all grown up and medium-sized by now but still i bet they're pretty cute. okay that's how i'm going to leave things, thinking about the kitties. alright have a good weekend folks, and if you're in the amherst/northampton area check out the shark spaceship (with new trombonist jared johnson) at the pearl street theater on saturday.