random dilemma

[kick_the_child]

SOOOO - Shamy likes me. I don't like Shamy like that. Sara likes Shamy. Chieco likes Shamy. I like Neil. Neil is Shamy's friend. Neil i think likes me too. Joe(guy i walk with LOL) like me now. Well, he always liked me, but now is trying to start something with it. IDK... This is so confusing. OH and i haven't talked with Mike in like a few days, which seems forever, but he still likes me too. I kinda like him still...o man. this is making my head hurt. Shamy is just my friend. Love him to death, but not with romantic feelings. He's an awesome guy. END. Neil and I have been talking more. We had a good time at Project Graduation, i slept on his shoulder the way home, haha. He wants to watch Napolean Dynamite with me bc we both are obsessed. He said friday, idk- still in the air. Joe called me yesterday night while I was at Kiersten's with Rob Bowne, Tim, and Shamy watching a movie. I got home at 12am. Joe got off of work and wanted to chill by the beach: aka walk. So, i snuck out of the house and was there till like 130am with him. Got back in the house w/o a trace and was about to fall asleep when he text me. He wants to start liking me but didnt know if i like him. I was tired and said i liked him too, which i do. He said he wanted to kiss me b4 but didnt know if he should or not. He wants to go out same time tomorrow same place. oh man. IDK. I mean i like Joe and he's hot (lol) but now im thinking the things he does piss me off and how we have been friends since we both moved here. It's kinda weird sorta. hopefully i wont do/say something stupid tonight if i decide to go out again. Im a loser like that. and i mean something stupid that would ruin what we already have..idk..im blabbing. But, continuing on...Neil again, well is cute. I think he is. Others do too lol. No one thought i liked him or knew about it. It was random. Neil is awesome. Funny and very talented: piano,singing,guitar,etc. the convos in school and on aol we've had are awesome. I think, if anything, my best bet is with Neil. Well, that wasn't so hard? -if only it were that simple...idk...im done talking to myself now..ill let things play by ear.

i have no idea what's going on tongiht. I'll call Kiersten and see what's up...later

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