Summary & Thread Log: Private Storyline - Why?

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I've got soul but I'm not a soldier.

***STATUS***
Romantic Status: Taken
Boyfriend: Steve Rogers/Captain America steverogers_cpt
Family: Deceased

***EMPLOYMENT/AFFILIATIONS***
Agent - S.H.I.E.L.D. (Currently on extended medical leave due to near fatal injuries and temporary memory lose)

Natasha has no idea why she worries about Steve so, taking far too close of an interest in his sex life (or lack thereof). That is until he asks her one simple question about the way she's been acting? Why? Now the two find themselves in very unfamiliar territory, attempting to make sense of their feelings and the night and day differences between them. The added stress of your typical superhero day-to-day lives with SHIELD doesn't help.

***THREAD LOG***
(Oldest first)

• Natasha feels guilty for doing her 'job'.
• Little bit of working.
• (marathon thread) Tasha finds out Steve's only been kissed twice. After they decide to drown their sorrows in cake, they discover it was for the birthday of a fallen SHIELD agent. Then she gives him hell for not getting out there in the world. With porn...but she chickens out before telling him he's 'cute'.
• (marathon thread) Natasha discovered Steve has had his mind erased by a secret facility knows as the Dollhouse. After LOTS of effort, including a botched reformating job, they finally get his brain back were it belongs.
• In an effort to try and ignore feelings she doesn't even realize she has, Natasha attempts to get Steve laid by any means nessesary. Of course, once again, she chickens out. This time after she realizes WHY she's acting that way.
• Steve admits to Natasha that he wants to ' get to know her better' when she's having a day filled with rergets.
• So she invites him over to watch Star Wars. They forego the movie to talk about (and express the fact) they care about each other more than is typical.
• After they have 'movie night', Tasha and Steve go out for lunch and realize this dating...or whatever they're doing...isn't as complicated as it seems.
• Natasha starts to realize her dark past could cause problems with the new relationship. Instead of calmly talking about it, she lashes out at Steve who, to her surprise, doesn't walk away from her after it.
• A mission gone wrong robs Steve of the abilities the Super Solider Serum gave him. Instead of allowing him to hide in his room, Natasha throws a little tough love at him and decides she'll do whatever it takes to get him back to being Captain America if that's what he wants, including putting them both into a potentially dangerous situation.
• After they solve his de-seruming, Natasha decides to bring Steve cupcakes for his birthday. They go to the met and after a short conversation about what happened in Russia, he tells her he loves her.
• After he's injured on a 'secret' mission, Tasha convinces Steve to go to medical. While the doctor leave to order some tests, Natasha finally admits to Steve that she's been keeping the events of the Dollhouse from him. Both get upset and she finally admits the reason she's been so secretive with him is because she loves him.
• Steve gives Tasha the silent treatment, and she doesn't know why. After she grows frustrated, an alarm sounds and Tasha discovered Steve's been 'compromised' leading him to kill several agents in an attempt to steal Captain America's Sheild while speaking almost primarily in Russian. She has to stop him any way she can, including a heavy dose of the Widow's Bite weapon.
• Tasha and Steve try to get things back to normal after his 'incident'. She manages to talk Fury into giving them a week off.
• They go to cabin in the woods for a little peace and quiet. (adult content)
• Nick Fury sits Natasha down to tell her Steve didn't survive a mission the Council sent him on. After discovering Zola is still alive and  used Steve for unclear reasons, the team discovered he had been replaced by a Life -Model Decoy during the mission the Council sent him on several weeks ago.
• Natasha finds Steve in the gym, and decided to be honest with him. Completely. She tells him she told 'not him' that she loved him, that they slept together and, worst  of all, she didn't suspect it wasn't him because she thought he was getting 'better' and more happy. Unable to convince herself she's anything but trouble for him, she lets him walk away. For good.
• Natasha drowns her sorrows over the break up in a bottle of Stoli and a little violence. Soon after, SHIELD sends the team on a mission. Natasha and Steve try to keep it professional, but all the hurt feelings and unaddressed anger lead to them not keeping their minds on the mission. Natasha is wounded in the battle, losing consciousness in the field. After several hours of emergency surgery, she wakes to discover that three months of her memories are missing, including most of the time she and Steve were dating.
• Steve returns home to pack up his things, having quit SHIELD and been encouraged by Natasha's doctor to let the relationship stay over. Tasha has other plans, calling Steve at home to try and talk him into coming to see her. After he tells her he will come by after a funeral, she puts two-and-two together, deducing from what Steve says that Peggy Carter has died. After the service, Steve comes to see Tasha and they both confess they love each other, but things are far more complicated than just that.
• Two weeks later, Natasha is discharged from medical and sent home. She ditches the SHIELD appointed babysitter and finds Steve hasn't unpacked and looks worse than she's ever seen him look before.
• (Tumblr) Tasha tries to get Steve to leave the house, telling him they should go shopping if all he has is SHIELD issued clothes and his old army uniform. When he says he doesn't want to leave the apartment she tells him she needs to go to SHIELD to get her stitches taken out. (Thread chain 1 & 2)
• Steve goes with Natasha to medical.
• Tasha has to play video games as part of her physical therapy. It's Star Wars, so she asks Steve to be player two... but she has other things in mind (adult content)
• After being cleared by medical, Natasha decides to go back to work. She tries to convince Steve to come back with her, and succeeds. Kinda.
• The next day, Tasha and Steve go to SHIELD for a mission briefing. Things go terrible wrong; tempers flair, harsh insults are thrown and after a few choice words from Tony,  Steve decides not to go on the mission with Clint and Natasha.
• The mission leaves Natasha away from home for weeks instead of hours. When she gets back, she's too exhausted to notice Steve's even worse than when she left. After an argument, Steve's body gives into the stress of not taking care of himself, and just as Tony Stark comes by to visit, Steve collapses, sending Tasha into a panic.

(Updated 3/01/13)