Laser Tag and friends
Sometimes I feel like my college friends aren't my friends anymore. I know that I'm much closer to everyone than I was a year ago, but I feel like they don't want to spend time together anymore. When we get together I have these high expectations for how great it will be, because that's the way it always was before and I always had the time of my life. Now I feel like everyone has better things to do and better friends to see. Austin and Bando have girlfriends, and while they spend time with us, it's just not the same. I want it to be the way it was-- being able to laugh at the stupid things and have a dinner where all we do is be retarded, but I know that it won't be that way. I want to tell everyone how I feel, but I know I can't. I know these people so well. Maybe I don't know their secrets or know exactly what they want to be or what their goals are, but I know their hearts and I know their intentions. I know how they act and I know that I love them to death, and it hurts to have everyone just leaving. Maybe I try too hard to make it fun or maybe I get let down too easily. Like Lilly said, "Not everything has to be perfect". It doesn't have to be perfect, but I'll still be upset. I want to be able to go and hang out and have fun. I want the time back when we all stayed at my house until 4:30 just goofing off and watching movies. The latest we have stayed out this whole break is 11. I want the good times back. I miss who they used to be.