I don't expect this to make sense, my thoughts are never straight.
Who's opinion do you value more- your best friend's, who is always willing to tell you you look nice or that you're fun to be around, or that of your crush, who you fight with constantly but still want to impress?
I have low self-confidence. Everyone knows that, it's something I haven't "gotten over" in forever. But I feel better when I feel like someone I like is taking an interest in me again. I want to dress more like a girl, I stand up straighter, I feel better overall. But when he suddenly doesn't once again I am "wreck girl" without meaning to be. I feel self-conscious and nervous about things, dress more casually, and don't feel like making my outside pretty. The whole "dress to impress even if you feel crappy" loses something when you feel crappy for more than a few days.
Long distance -SUCKS- when you like someone but aren't dating them. You don't want to knock their friends, since they're nice people most of the time, but they have something now that you don't. Your friend. But would moving out there change anything? Doubtful. Is it time to move on? Probably, by all accounts the answer is yes. Will I? Probably not yet. I am tired of "I think you two are meant to be but not yet." I don't want to hear another Ross/Rachel story, they took care of that in "Friends" didn't they? It just aggraivates me. I know that I'm pretty, but when I'm fighting I don't feel it. When I have to stick up for my actions and try not to feel like a bitch I don't like it. I can't wait to get out of Syracuse and start over again. New apartment, new job (at least new job location), and maybe a new outlook on life. Seven hours is a long way for a weekend trip.
I have low self-confidence. Everyone knows that, it's something I haven't "gotten over" in forever. But I feel better when I feel like someone I like is taking an interest in me again. I want to dress more like a girl, I stand up straighter, I feel better overall. But when he suddenly doesn't once again I am "wreck girl" without meaning to be. I feel self-conscious and nervous about things, dress more casually, and don't feel like making my outside pretty. The whole "dress to impress even if you feel crappy" loses something when you feel crappy for more than a few days.
Long distance -SUCKS- when you like someone but aren't dating them. You don't want to knock their friends, since they're nice people most of the time, but they have something now that you don't. Your friend. But would moving out there change anything? Doubtful. Is it time to move on? Probably, by all accounts the answer is yes. Will I? Probably not yet. I am tired of "I think you two are meant to be but not yet." I don't want to hear another Ross/Rachel story, they took care of that in "Friends" didn't they? It just aggraivates me. I know that I'm pretty, but when I'm fighting I don't feel it. When I have to stick up for my actions and try not to feel like a bitch I don't like it. I can't wait to get out of Syracuse and start over again. New apartment, new job (at least new job location), and maybe a new outlook on life. Seven hours is a long way for a weekend trip.