so many words for you

[kiari_n_ookami]

well lets just say i miss my friend alot....i mean he was always there for me but now he really cant be and i dont know what to do...some nights i cry myself to sleep.......no one could ever understand how much i miss him..........not even christinne..........he is a part of me that i cant live without and my parents are making it hard on me cause they wont let me see him not even talk to him...so what i have to do is talk to him online when my parents ask who im talking to i make up a name...so they dont know its him...but you see i oculd always turn to him for help and he would always be there and never leave me...but its soo ahrd goin behind their backs and talking to him but i dont want to loose him and yet i dont want to disobay my parents....i wish that my mom would just understand that he means soo much to me and i cant let him go.....sometimes when i reflect on all the good times me and him had i cry myself to sleep knowing that i will never be able to have fun like we did as long as im underneath this roof...but when i get my car and if he is still here no one can stop me from not seeing him........i guess what im trying to say is that i could never let him go and i never will...he means more to me than anything in the world....i would do anything for him......like today when me and him adn christinne where talking in the chat room it felt like old times until my mom had to come in as useal and ask who are you talking to....i swear cant she trust me...dont think so.....but you see i guess that im trying to say is that i could live without some of my friends except karlee and eric and christinne but the one most of all that i feel so connected to is oyu nate......if you havent figured it out this was and is bout you.....just want to let you know how i feel....you see i was scared to tell you so i decided to write it down and let you read it...guess im scared of my feeling but i shouldnt be right...huh? well i guess thats it wel ill talk to you later....i love you guys
-natalie
P.S. karlee and eric dont get mad at me its just the way i feel and no i cant live without you guys but oh i dont know guess you will find out later what i mean by how i feel for nate.