Mar 11, 2011 00:40
Everytime I go back home to see my parents it strikes me how old they look nowadays. They're actually visibly older. Both of them seem so fragile, each in their own way.
Mum is so lonely, spending most of the day on her own. She likes talking and discussing various things but people are
a) rarely around for long enough to talk or
b) not in the mood to talk to her as she tends to talk quite a lot once she gets started.
She's also still dealing with her cancer, although I think things are somewhat better and it seems like she's ok for now, both physically and mentally. I just wish she'd get more of the attention that she needs and that she could enjoy life a little bit more. She certainly deserves it and it upsets me how she never seems to get (or take) the chance to do so.
Dad on the other hand, is not lonely but instead very busy. He works hard, often works overtime and takes on extra work to the extent that he has very little time left to relax. He looks so tired all the time and he's got major problems with his hands and his lungs now. Both my brother and I are truly worried about him, he's been smoking and working as a chimney-sweep for the past 45 years. He's been told to stop smoking to improve his health but so far nothing's really happened (and to be honest, it must be really hard to quit after smoking for that long...)
It's so sad to see my parents like this... That childish belief that our parents will always be around to save and help us is fading more and more for every time I come home to visit them.
It really gets me down to think about the day when they won't be around anymore. They're good people, the best actually, and I'm so lucky that they are my parents...
Mum and dad, I love you so much! <3
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