"Christmas is not clothing optional this year." -The Family Stone
Well, again Christmas is at the door step and I have yet to just sit down and enjoy it. I think that is always the main reason that I have my Christmas Day cry. I love this season and how I feel happy and then, it's just gone so fast. *sigh* I greatly limited who I gave presents too this year though. That made things a lot easier. Simple is definitely glorious.
I miss a lot of people right now. Scott, Sheree, Kayleen, Margaret, etc. People who I really look up too but don't get to talk to or see that often. I think about people like that a lot at this time of year.
Since I don't really believe in the Mormon church anymore, it would seem to people that I don't believe in many things dealing with religion anymore. In fact, I am more faithful now about Jesus, God, and Heaven than I have ever been. It's just that now, I don't feel like They are mean. I feel like They are loving and caring. I always felt like I was going to go to hell when I went to church for things I did. Now, I feel like it really isn't as bad as all that. I felt belief so strongly tonight, it was just amazing and I love how Christmas makes me feel that way. Even through all the commercialism and everything, I love the fact that I still feel it. It makes me undescribably happy.
I complain about a lot of things. That's a horrible habit to have. It's definitely at the top of my New Year's Resolutions. Even though I truly DESPISE new year's eve. Except for the Copper Mill Buffet.
Oh, and if I try to come off to people as a hard ass (if not, then phew), I am really, just a bowl of mushed up messyness. I may seem like something isn't bothering me but later, I secretly cry about it. I don't know why I do this. It truly eats at me.
I guess you could say that this blog is my list of New Year's Resolutions. But, let's not call it that being as I don't like said holiday. How about, a propaganda about the improvements to be made. Well, whatever. There are a lot of things that hopefully will be changing.
highlight of the day: realizing that I believe in something
meaningful quote of the day: "It's much easier to give than recieve. There's no strings attached to giving." -Diana, Princess of Wales
I miss a lot of people right now. Scott, Sheree, Kayleen, Margaret, etc. People who I really look up too but don't get to talk to or see that often. I think about people like that a lot at this time of year.
Since I don't really believe in the Mormon church anymore, it would seem to people that I don't believe in many things dealing with religion anymore. In fact, I am more faithful now about Jesus, God, and Heaven than I have ever been. It's just that now, I don't feel like They are mean. I feel like They are loving and caring. I always felt like I was going to go to hell when I went to church for things I did. Now, I feel like it really isn't as bad as all that. I felt belief so strongly tonight, it was just amazing and I love how Christmas makes me feel that way. Even through all the commercialism and everything, I love the fact that I still feel it. It makes me undescribably happy.
I complain about a lot of things. That's a horrible habit to have. It's definitely at the top of my New Year's Resolutions. Even though I truly DESPISE new year's eve. Except for the Copper Mill Buffet.
Oh, and if I try to come off to people as a hard ass (if not, then phew), I am really, just a bowl of mushed up messyness. I may seem like something isn't bothering me but later, I secretly cry about it. I don't know why I do this. It truly eats at me.
I guess you could say that this blog is my list of New Year's Resolutions. But, let's not call it that being as I don't like said holiday. How about, a propaganda about the improvements to be made. Well, whatever. There are a lot of things that hopefully will be changing.
highlight of the day: realizing that I believe in something
meaningful quote of the day: "It's much easier to give than recieve. There's no strings attached to giving." -Diana, Princess of Wales