The complexities of summer and dreams
The end of the semester is finally upon us. I am afraid, however, I have mixed emotions concerning this fact. I am relieved, of course, that I will not have to concern myself with completing trivial homework assignments, studying for tests or quizzes, or working on projects for the up-comming two and a half to three months. The relief from academics will be, well, a relief. I have already completed my hospitality class and will finalize my other three classes next week (M=Critical Thinking, T=Communications, W=Trig). Unfortunatly for me, I will actually be required to study for finals this year. To keep my remaining three class grades up I will need to obtain decent grades on all my finals. Nothing a little (or a lot of) studying can not help with, I am sure.
However, this "vacation" is a double edged sword. Though academics will not be an issue, I have several other issues at hand I will have to deal with. I need to get my drivers liscense renewed, acquire a job, move out of the house, start saving up for an apartment and school supplise and insurance and a car and savings and a tiny bit for that tattoo I want to get... *whew* I won't get too much of a vacation this summer. I will also have to (eventually) get ready for next semester as well. I do wish to increase my almost nonexistant skills in HTML and JAVA this summer, though, so I can get ready for the computer classes. I know HTML is not used much at all (if at all), but it was my first brush with coding and I desire to return to it once more.
There are some things I do want to accomplish (or at least start) this summer, as well. I want to start roleplaying (written roleplay) again but if that is somehow unobtainable I wish to at least start on some short stories and to work on my book again. I want to rewrite the (very long) short story I wrote for creative writing back in high school. The story was actually supposed to be book length, but I had to condense it a lot so it would fit the "short story" requirements for the class. Can you believe it was fourty-four pages long in its super condensed version? It is an awesome story though. Or rather, would have been an awesome story. This time I am going to write it how it was supposed to be written though, and with my skills (which are now far superior to what they were back then, thanks to my old RP guild Bloody Laurels *Thanks you guys!!!*) in character writing and creation inhanced my story should be a bit higher in quality. I so can not wait. I want to begin the story of Cain, too. He is a character that I made up for the guild but I absolutley love both him and his background too much to not tell his story. Not to be boastful, but he really is an amazing character. I also want to work on a bit of poetry this summer as well. Poetry is a little harder though, since I can not just *decide* to write a poem. I have to both be in a poetry writing mood and have a specific aura melding (and be in the proper atmosphere) to properly write a decent poem. So I suppose my wanting to write poetry this summer is more of a desire than an actual goal...
My birthday is in about six days. I think I have decided that I won't actually skip it this year... but I am going to totally shut down anyone who decides to try to relate my celebrating to the whole "legally able to drink" thing, because that has absolutley no place in what-so-ever in my celebration. Besides, I don't want to be in a bad mood on my birthday. I don't actually think anyone who really cares about me will do that to me though, especially since I've already expressed my concerns about the matter. I wasn't in the best of moods when I wrote that last entry. It all still holds true, but I'm not concerned anymore that anyone who actually matters to me will end up ticking me off with that. Kudos to Justin and Leeanne for helping me figure that out. =)
As a side note, I have been having really creepy dreams lately. Not another prophetic(?) one like the one I wrote in here a wile back, but just creepy and odd. Like last night I had a dream where I was an old man and I could hardly walk anywhere because my feet were shreaded into what resembled ground hamburger. But the meat was not hamburger, but the meat of my feet. I pulled off three hamburger like white strings of it and threw them away, but my foot was raw (both literally and figuratively) after that. My other foot had a piece just like it but I couldn't pull it out because it was under other raw pink-ish strings and I knew it would not only hurt terribly if I pulled it off but that my foot would unravel as well. So weird. I had another dream shortly after that was basically a synopse (or long freeking trailer) of the movie Children of the Corn. It involved dead freeky children (no older than eight) and later on dead mothers of the dead children once the dead children actually became totally dead rather than "living dead". It verged on frightening, but never quite made it there. There was corn involved too, I think a corn field surrounding the area. The odd thing... have never even seen Children of the Corn, ever. I have no idea of where that dream came from. I really need to clean out my dreamcatchers, though, because I think they have absorbed and filtered all the negative energy that they can handle. =/
Hmmm... not much else going on that I can think of. For anyone getting ready for finals, I wish you the best of luck! I could use some luck in return as well. ^-^ *Alexis Jay Caloway, over and out.
*For anyone who doesn't know, Alexis Jay Caloway is one of my many pseudonames. It's one of my favorites though. I absolutly LOVE the name Alexis and Caloway is a pretty cool name as well. Jay originally started out as simply "J.", because it's one of my favorite letters of the alphabet. However, after trying to find a good J name that fits with Alexis Caloway I ended up deciding that Jay actually fit rather well and it just kind of stuck after that. Now you know...
However, this "vacation" is a double edged sword. Though academics will not be an issue, I have several other issues at hand I will have to deal with. I need to get my drivers liscense renewed, acquire a job, move out of the house, start saving up for an apartment and school supplise and insurance and a car and savings and a tiny bit for that tattoo I want to get... *whew* I won't get too much of a vacation this summer. I will also have to (eventually) get ready for next semester as well. I do wish to increase my almost nonexistant skills in HTML and JAVA this summer, though, so I can get ready for the computer classes. I know HTML is not used much at all (if at all), but it was my first brush with coding and I desire to return to it once more.
There are some things I do want to accomplish (or at least start) this summer, as well. I want to start roleplaying (written roleplay) again but if that is somehow unobtainable I wish to at least start on some short stories and to work on my book again. I want to rewrite the (very long) short story I wrote for creative writing back in high school. The story was actually supposed to be book length, but I had to condense it a lot so it would fit the "short story" requirements for the class. Can you believe it was fourty-four pages long in its super condensed version? It is an awesome story though. Or rather, would have been an awesome story. This time I am going to write it how it was supposed to be written though, and with my skills (which are now far superior to what they were back then, thanks to my old RP guild Bloody Laurels *Thanks you guys!!!*) in character writing and creation inhanced my story should be a bit higher in quality. I so can not wait. I want to begin the story of Cain, too. He is a character that I made up for the guild but I absolutley love both him and his background too much to not tell his story. Not to be boastful, but he really is an amazing character. I also want to work on a bit of poetry this summer as well. Poetry is a little harder though, since I can not just *decide* to write a poem. I have to both be in a poetry writing mood and have a specific aura melding (and be in the proper atmosphere) to properly write a decent poem. So I suppose my wanting to write poetry this summer is more of a desire than an actual goal...
My birthday is in about six days. I think I have decided that I won't actually skip it this year... but I am going to totally shut down anyone who decides to try to relate my celebrating to the whole "legally able to drink" thing, because that has absolutley no place in what-so-ever in my celebration. Besides, I don't want to be in a bad mood on my birthday. I don't actually think anyone who really cares about me will do that to me though, especially since I've already expressed my concerns about the matter. I wasn't in the best of moods when I wrote that last entry. It all still holds true, but I'm not concerned anymore that anyone who actually matters to me will end up ticking me off with that. Kudos to Justin and Leeanne for helping me figure that out. =)
As a side note, I have been having really creepy dreams lately. Not another prophetic(?) one like the one I wrote in here a wile back, but just creepy and odd. Like last night I had a dream where I was an old man and I could hardly walk anywhere because my feet were shreaded into what resembled ground hamburger. But the meat was not hamburger, but the meat of my feet. I pulled off three hamburger like white strings of it and threw them away, but my foot was raw (both literally and figuratively) after that. My other foot had a piece just like it but I couldn't pull it out because it was under other raw pink-ish strings and I knew it would not only hurt terribly if I pulled it off but that my foot would unravel as well. So weird. I had another dream shortly after that was basically a synopse (or long freeking trailer) of the movie Children of the Corn. It involved dead freeky children (no older than eight) and later on dead mothers of the dead children once the dead children actually became totally dead rather than "living dead". It verged on frightening, but never quite made it there. There was corn involved too, I think a corn field surrounding the area. The odd thing... have never even seen Children of the Corn, ever. I have no idea of where that dream came from. I really need to clean out my dreamcatchers, though, because I think they have absorbed and filtered all the negative energy that they can handle. =/
Hmmm... not much else going on that I can think of. For anyone getting ready for finals, I wish you the best of luck! I could use some luck in return as well. ^-^ *Alexis Jay Caloway, over and out.
*For anyone who doesn't know, Alexis Jay Caloway is one of my many pseudonames. It's one of my favorites though. I absolutly LOVE the name Alexis and Caloway is a pretty cool name as well. Jay originally started out as simply "J.", because it's one of my favorite letters of the alphabet. However, after trying to find a good J name that fits with Alexis Caloway I ended up deciding that Jay actually fit rather well and it just kind of stuck after that. Now you know...