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I'll never put myself out on the line like I did last night. The thing is, I had a post, asking him back and all, and all day I put it up, then took it down. I have insecurities that are finally showing. I'm not as brave or strong as you may be think. For the past few days I've been hiding inside of a friends house. *sighs softly, laying her head down on her knees* I know many of you don't know the "real" Kiana, maybe only a few do, like Kim and Justin and maybe JC. But when you pretend that you do, and you base things off of that, like I'm strong and I can handle things, that just brings me down more.
I wanted a few days to think. To get away. For time to myself. Hi, I was a fucking idiot to break up with Colin. I didn't know what I wanted. What would really make me happy. And yeah I see now that it's him. But I have to wait till monday to see if he even wants me or not. I couldn't tell you how fucking vaulnerable I feel right now. But hey, I deserve it so, yeah. *closes her eyes tight, biting down on her bottom lip to stop the sting of fresh tears* Hi, my name is Kiana, I'm an idiot that can't hold herself up anymore.
Colin, I'm sorry for just throwing the question out there like that. I miss everything about you, and I'm willing to give you your space and leave you alone untill you're ready to make some sort of descision. I'm sorry for being such an idiot and giving up something to great like you. I just hope it's not too late and you actually want something to do with me. I really miss you, Colin. Call me soon?
I wanted a few days to think. To get away. For time to myself. Hi, I was a fucking idiot to break up with Colin. I didn't know what I wanted. What would really make me happy. And yeah I see now that it's him. But I have to wait till monday to see if he even wants me or not. I couldn't tell you how fucking vaulnerable I feel right now. But hey, I deserve it so, yeah. *closes her eyes tight, biting down on her bottom lip to stop the sting of fresh tears* Hi, my name is Kiana, I'm an idiot that can't hold herself up anymore.
Colin, I'm sorry for just throwing the question out there like that. I miss everything about you, and I'm willing to give you your space and leave you alone untill you're ready to make some sort of descision. I'm sorry for being such an idiot and giving up something to great like you. I just hope it's not too late and you actually want something to do with me. I really miss you, Colin. Call me soon?