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Last night...was, well, good. To me anyhow. It's way to early right now but I have to go load in the new boards again this morning. *sighs* I think my arms are going to fall off. I have to go into the diner and give in my notice but I know that when I do, the manager will harass me again. I need my rock there with me, but oh well. I know that when I put in my notice, he'll schedule me for every day, till close. And yeah, hi, that blows.
I actually got a really good sleep last night. *glances back at her bed, watching him sleep there peacefully* No matter how hard I try, people will never fully know what they mean to me. And I'm afraid if I don't do something soon, it'll be too late. I know it can't happen, but you can't hate me for wanting it to. I like how things are right now, sure, but it's killing me.
Maybe I'm trying to cling to you so another guy won't come along and hurt me. Physically. I don't think I could take that toll again. It'd ruin me indefinitly. I know who you are, and I know that you've seen me like that, and that you wouldn't do that to me. But how am I to trust everyone else, when I don't even let them touch me? You can never fully know a person.
But I really don't think this is the reason. I think, no I know that theres something there. Unless I'm stupid and missing all of the "Get away from me fast" signs. I just need you to tell me what it is you want. But please, not another "We can't be together" because honestly, my heart sinks deeper back down with every one of those. Deeper back where it was in the hospital. Closing off from everyone and not doing a damn thing. I can't go there again, I won't. So save me while you can.
I actually got a really good sleep last night. *glances back at her bed, watching him sleep there peacefully* No matter how hard I try, people will never fully know what they mean to me. And I'm afraid if I don't do something soon, it'll be too late. I know it can't happen, but you can't hate me for wanting it to. I like how things are right now, sure, but it's killing me.
Maybe I'm trying to cling to you so another guy won't come along and hurt me. Physically. I don't think I could take that toll again. It'd ruin me indefinitly. I know who you are, and I know that you've seen me like that, and that you wouldn't do that to me. But how am I to trust everyone else, when I don't even let them touch me? You can never fully know a person.
But I really don't think this is the reason. I think, no I know that theres something there. Unless I'm stupid and missing all of the "Get away from me fast" signs. I just need you to tell me what it is you want. But please, not another "We can't be together" because honestly, my heart sinks deeper back down with every one of those. Deeper back where it was in the hospital. Closing off from everyone and not doing a damn thing. I can't go there again, I won't. So save me while you can.